2.0.1.0.

What I write in this post might be offensive to some people. This post will mostly be charged with negativity. Be warned. I could instead write this in my private blog. But nobody but my closest friend has access to that. Perhaps I'll privatize this blog after today.

The start of this year, I worked for 3 months, wasn't too happy with it honestly. But, oh well. The Me then doesn't seem much like the Me now. So just gonna let that all sink.

Then I went back to school for form 6. Hyped about it. "A new start! Hey! Maybe I can mix with the science streamers! Oh and there will be girls!" Boy, was I wrong about that! I'd certainly got myself a few haters more than good friends here. Hmmm, I wonder would 'a few' be an understatement? What happened on the first day of school? Well, a dictator who won my Mr.Douchebag of Malaysia 2010 told me my hair was too long and either cut it right now, go back home and come back tomorrow. Screw him, it's written in those official papers that if you don't apply today, you can be treated as forfeiting form 6. Not gonna let him screw me over, and with that, I started form 6 with ugly hair(not short, ugly. I don't mind short hair if I don't look ugly like hell with it).

Met some bitches, met some bastards, some jerks and idiots along the way. As for anyone who would argue that there are nice people around, well sure. I do think that there are some nice people around perhaps, I don't know everyone in the same form personally, some I briefly do. But hey, I never could mix well with science streamers, considering that there are only a few pure art streamers that came to form 6? Yeah, gonna have a great time with everyone I can't mix with! SMI's science stream and art stream are way different from other school's relationships from what I'd heard. For starters, MC doesn't seem to have any hate between each streams.

SMI art streamers says;
"Fucking science streamers with their lansi attitudes, god fuck them people."

SMI science streamers says;
"Bleh, punks with no future in life. The whole art stream will just die one day in a gang war, that won't be surprising."

I don't heard anything about Sam Tet hating each other because of the streams either. Some of my new Sam Tet friends seem to be getting along fine with everyone, from science or art. It made me chuckle and I think I really did smirk, when a classmate of mine said; "We used to think the art stream is for losers, but now in lowersix? God, we're now art streamers and there's really no difference! We used to say going to the art stream is a grade down too!"

A while after form 6 started, I started hanging out with a few science streamers, and I thought "Wow...not all science streamers are cocky bastard!" but of course, then some drama happened, I started to get infatuated with this one girl, and now we're mortal enemies, won't have it any other way, but after the drama subsided, me and the other science streamers are now quite distant. So much for getting along and being friends, seeing another side of people bla bla bla. Really, I really thought that for once I might have some friends who are not neglecting understanding others.

What I did? Well, move on with life! I never seem to stick around those pure science streamers, never could, even when we have nothing against each other now. I started to get to know my classmates more after the whole drama above blew over. Come to think of it, me and my closest friend talk a lot more often(I think) after the shits that happened. Life goes on. I'll be frank, my very first impression of the class was bad, but then I got to know them a bit more, and my opinion is changed. Perhaps I was a bit too naive there, now I'm having another change of opinion. One of the reasons why I'm not looking forward to next year you could say. No matter what you do, a black colored piece can never blend in with the white pieces on a chessboard I guess. I'm just another jigsaw puzzle piece that doesn't seem to fit anywhere. At the end of lowersix, I pretty much lost all the fire needed to study.

I'd been talking to one of my classmate a bit lately. Heh, she and me are like oil and water. We can talk for a bit, but our ideas of life, our opinion on everything are way diverse. We recently even had a conversation on god, traditions and religion. I bet most of you people would call that as arguing, but I honestly see that as just a serious turn for a discussion and it's all healthy to a conversation such as this. Yet, every single time, everyone calls it an argument when I talk in serious ways. I'm sick and tired of this. I like to see it as debate or a serious discussion on particular topics, others see it as an argument and me trying to provoke others. Don't even try to reason with me saying the ways I say things are harsh, offensive or direct. I tried my best at being polite, making sure that my feedback on a Gundam model kit on a gundam forum cannot be taken as offensive. Guess what I got after I started talking about my points? A moderator says "Oh, I had been keeping an eye on Kyle for a long while already." Guess I just can't get along with typical Malaysians.

I don't share the same lifestyle as many others, my issues are not a booming inbox on christmas eve, not parents who won't allow sleepovers at friend's houses, definitely not money, not strict parents, and it's definitely not a girl I just knew for a few months and claim to be 'madly in love with.' Heh, listing it like this, makes my problems in life seem much more than majority of the people I know. Oh god, I'm making myself sound like the most pitiful poorest man in the world. But nay, I'm not, people at Haiti or recent tsunami and earthquake casualties are suffering probably a thousandfold more than me or anyone here reading this blog. I'm just saying that most of the people in front of me "seems"(note the emphasize) to have a better life and yet not appreciate it sometimes. Could really get on my nerves when people say they had an argument with their parents because of super silly things e.g. their parents not allowing them to buy a new phone or go hang out with friends on one particular day because of other events.

I used to have such a big superiority complex, I kinda feel it coming back right now. Perhaps it's my defense against people, and to use it to fill the voids that I feel in my heart. I bet I seem like quite an apathetic person to many? I have my softer side too, but it never seems that I feel comfortable showing it to every one of my friends.

Yet still, I won't let things like this get me down, I gotta "Rawr Rawr fight the powah" as one of my favorite rap song from an anime says. I shouldn't care about those who doesn't care about me. And it's definitely not worth it to change myself to please every single person I know. I don't have the support of many, just means that I gotta work a bit more harder. I can't blend in well, that has to mean that I'm special!! I'd made more than enough mistakes over the course of my 18 years life. I wish not to make any more fatal ones. But what's life when you're not living happily?

So to the world I say "Fuck you, and a Happy New Year." Let bid this miserable year farewell and stop looking backwards, a toast to the next year, the war is coming, STPM. I will look forward to the next year with my hope raised for life without hope seems so meaningless to live in, doesn't it?

REVIEW: Bram Stoker's Dracula

First of all, please take note that I'm not a frequent reader. I only have read two novels, in my whole life. Excluding the ones from school which I was forced to read. Add that up and I guess you could say that I'd only read 5 or 6 books. So naturally, my standard won't be that high and in the end, all of these are of my opinion! Oh, and the third book from Eragon? Bysingr? Totally suck balls.

Anyways! Onto the review!

I find the setting and atmosphere of the book very well expressed. I can instantly imagine the scenario in my head as I read. As in the whole picture. If I was given a brush or a pencil, I think I can actually sketch it out. At first I thought I won't be able to get used to the diary format Bram Stoker used on Dracula, but it blended quite well into the story. The way it's written doesn't make you go "Damn, why the hell did he decided to write in this format?!"

I don't think the writing's anything less, but I'm not that good a judge when it comes to books. Comics, tv shows and movies yes, but not books. The book had much dialogs and little fighting scenes.

I don't which version of the book do I have, but it's written completed and unabridged, and it's published by Classic Library with a dark shade of crimson for a cover. Pictures of the book I'd seen were always orange-ish yellow. But my book's still in a good condition. The quality of the paper is nice, I accidentally got a drop of water on the book while reading and it didn't stain the book! There are some marks on the book though, and some of the words are washed out. But that's due to age perhaps?

There's no problems in remembering which character is which, but between all 4 of the protagonists I don't really see much of a difference between them. But I guess they were distinctive enough.

Overall, I don't think it's anything bad and was enjoyable. It keeps you on the edge and wanting to read more. I definitely would recommend this book!

Sums Up Today

My HG Gouf Custom is complete and ready for battle damage and the likes to be done.

Having a runny nose since yesterday. Now it's all chocked up, meaning it's quite hard to breathe. At least I'm not down with a fever I guess.

2011 is coming, very very very soon. And hell, most of my homework's not done, and I'd not studied at all. Blame me all you want, but geez, ever since the last two weeks of lowersix I didn't felt like touching a pen unless it's for drawing. It's not just simple "Holiday fever" either. Bleh.

Didn't take a bath the whole day, I did brush my teeth and wash my face though.

And that's about it, I think. Nothing else to say; ah, I forgot, I wanted to write a review on Bram Stoker's Dracula. Oh well...not with difficulties in breathing.

Christmas Day

Okay, so it was two days ago. But I didn't had the mood to write a blog entry. Bleh. First, I went out to eat with my grandparents, and after that enjoyed some fun time with a few of my friends, the usual gang that I hang out with. Including my classmate from Form 5. Sam. While the girls were window shopping for clothes, begs and so, me and Sam were talking about guns, like how to operate a sniper rifle. Mechanism of a M16 and a handgun. Since he's now enrolled for NS. He's in polytechnics and for some odd reason all those who didn't get selected for NS will need to have NS at the polytechnics compounds. HAHAHAHA! That aside, heard that he's accurate with the handgun, oh who knows? :D Oh and we ended up playing bowling anyways. Too bad it was just me and Sam, the 2 girls were wearing skirts. I lost by 5 points. Darn. Had to screw up at the last shots.

Anyways, now that all the highlights are listed and spoken of, (unless I had missed any.) It was Christmas! So naturally, slash impulsively I went to buy myself two Christmas presents;



And to whom you might ask? The special and lucky person, yes! The ONE person who's receiving TWO christmas gifts from me?




Well!! Obviously it's ME! Trolling and being obnoxious aside. Gotta say, that was the first Christmas where I didn't spend my time at home. As for the two days that follows. Well, boredom and so. Homework's need to be done and I think I have quite a lot of photos I didn't upload, but oh well. As if that's a bad thing. My wallet is suddenly a lot lighter. Oh, and note to self; don't forget the money that I owed Vivian.

Yet Another Day

So, I didn't really had in mine that today was Christmas Eve, even when I wrote 24/12. Neither did it cross my mind that 25 is Christmas when I look at the numbers. Sums up what I think of Christmas and so. Anyways!!


I went to Kellie's Castle today along with Jeanette and Vivian to check the place out just to prepare for the vampire photoshot. One note, the place's hot as hell.
-Fun place to visit
-didn't see any ghosts
-the stairs were super small
-some spots were more than suitable for the photoshot.
-perfect place to do it.
-a pity that the place couldn't be completed. Things like these are what we call "Shit happens." I guess.

Anyways, after hopping around the place we went over to Jaya Jusco and pretty much spent the whole day there. Never did I kept in mind that today was Christmas Eve too.

Tomorrow! Oh Christmas!! I shall look forward to! Buying myself two Gundam models! Counting it as a christmas present to me! Me baby! Kyle <3 Himself, oh, and some screaming from parents. But of course, one more that I cannot leave out is gonna have some fun with buddies at Parade tomorrow.

Jingles Jingles

As usual, a blog entry on how I spent the day! And also! Some other random stuffs!!

On Christmas Eve~
I chose to spend the count down to Christmas!!
All alone!
Some dumbass said;
Nobody's gonna be alone on Christmas~
(or was it something like nobody's gonna be singing alone on christmas? Whatever)
But it's more~~~
Nobody's alone in being alone for Christmas~
But anyways~ Let's all be gay~
(Or we can just go fap to some blues, why the hell do they call it blues anyways?)
And sinnnng a song~
and a toast to a new year~

oh yeah, this was supposed to be about my day. Nevermind!

Anyone who's wondering; I wrote this with If You Were Gay in my head. HO HO HO HO!

Oh bloody hell.

I posted a feedback on what I think of a highly popular model built on a gundam model kit forum. God forbid em from taking offense or asking me to make something better looking "since you seem to have such a good idea on what looks good." But oh well. Could always say fuck em and just be satisfied by looking at pictures, tutorials and playing with my models instead of socializing with people.

Kyle's Life Story Thus Far!

I haven't been updating much. But oh well, nothing much to write about beside hanging out with my buddies, and occasionally chatting with em on the internet. The holiday's end is fast approaching and I have yet to even touch a book. God I'm screwed. Really screwed. Better start working on my homework either today or tomorrow. Note to self; if tomorrow, better not stop working on my homework after picking the pen up, until your hands drop dead.

I'm thinking of leaving my private blog to die, there's really not that much of a purpose to keep two, but then again. Oh well.

For those who follows my blog(if any o.o), you might remember that I stated that I found Bram Stoker's Dracula at Novel Hut last month or something. Well, I'd read through half the book and I gotta say I like it quite a lot. I'd also been reading about vampire sightings in real life, the Highgates Vampire Sightings and supernatural events that occurred there seems pretty scary and interesting. Go give it a read if you're hunting for some horror story or vampire sightings.

I saw a commercial yesterday and here's how I responded to it;

Commercial: Winners don't do drugs!!
Me: But Elvis did do drugs.

Well, I wasn't taking it seriously and it wasn't one of the emotionally touching commercials, so I didn't resist cracking jokes at it. Heck I don't remember what the commercial was about.

I'm trying to make my comic feel less like a 'manga-influenced' comic and more into a plain old comic. But, since I'd been using only black and white and once school starts again I won't have time to even think of going full colors. I went with a little blend of color and black and white and oh, threw some screentones into it too. Getting some positive responds to it. Can't say I'm not happy :D But, I'm still not so satisfied, I myself still feel that it's quite manga-like.

Gotta bring my little brother out to buy books, after my lunch. Not sure what to do since it has been 5 years since I was in Form 2. I remember that not every subject teacher will use all the books listed in the "list of books to buy" though. However, as stated, 5 years has passed since then so I'm not sure how the system is for my brother's. Bleh, gotta waste money again? =/ Already wasted enough during my time. This is exactly the reason why I hate buying books early. Much rather be late.

Heard some stories about some of my friends, quite surprised. Never knew they would do those things when I used to talk to them before. But oh well. People. What can you do?

Christmas is coming. Bleh, boring holiday. I hate Christmas, but I like snow, I wish to have a snowball war against my friends, I wanna try making an angel on the snow and I would love to try making a snowman. Oh well, call me The Scourge, I don't care. :)

There's a DCD version Kuuga being released with Gouram. I REALLY need that, as a big Kamen Rider Kuuga fan. Not to mention Gouram can function along and Kuuga's body frame isn't effected at all by the Gouram feature. I'm sold! Then there's SIC Kamen Rider W Cyclone Joker that comes with Cyclone Joker Extreme parts. My god, Bandai is killing me and my wallet. I also ordered a MG Gundam Quanta O, this little baby made me lose the chance to ride a train to and back from Kuala Lumpur with my classmates. If I don't build a marvelous piece of model out of this kit. I will never live it down. Oh, and I love it's box art design. One could say it's one of the reasons why I decided that I want this model kit a lot and pre-ordered it without much consideration, that and I saw a discount offer on the model kit. :D RM 165 baby! Man, if I ever get a girlfriend, please let her be rich lest she won't have much choices for casual presents that can make me happy, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Joking aside, my wallet's gonna be burned. Damn you Bandai, damn you.

A year end post? I'll do that on the 31st of December instead. Since I'll probably update later on again anyways. No point doing it now. Maybe I should actually write one on January instead. I can't speak for anyone else, but I'm sure some of us dare say that we had changed quite a bit from last year. I still don't really believe that I'm wearing white pants as part of my school uniforms. Ah, life.

I don't wanna be a tiger, cause tigers play too rough~
I don't wanan be a lion, cause lions ain't the kind you love enouuugh~
Just wanna be, your teddy bear
Put a chain around my neck,
and lead me anywhere,
Oh let me be, your teddy bear~

I wonder how many of you guys know this song?

Aww man, I'm so in the mood to sing along to songs by Westlife and Elvis Presley. Throw in some titles like Better Man by Robbie Williams and Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert.

Perhaps a slice of Find Yourself by Brad Paisley and It's My Life by Bon Jovi.

Tiny bit of Marchin On by One Republic, a pinch of Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan and also When You're Evil and God Thinks by Voltaire.

A noticeable amount of Graduation (Friends Forever) by Vitamin C and The Way We Were by Barbra Sreisand.

Ah, Billionaire by Travis and Airplane by B.O.B and Hayley Williams in between all of that!

And there you have it, quite a good list of songs that can summarize this year for me. Since Form 5 ended, I gotta say Graduation by Vitamin C fits very well into the list. I'm not sure how many of us can sing the last few lines of the chorus honestly, I sure can't.

Ohhh man, did I just write a blog entry reflecting on this year?

REVIEW: Rapunzel (SPOILERS AHEAD)

Rapunzel!! I'm quite glad I decided to watch this film. While there are some spoilers here, I am not gonna go into much details, since well. I'm typing this after midnight, I'm tired from a whole day of fun. But I still feel like writing a review anyways lest I forget it, so please excuse me.

At first, looking at the characters(well, mostly at Rider and Rapunzel) I instantly thought of Aladdin and Jasmine. From facial expressions, personality to character design. Yup. Sure does. But you don't really mind it after you get into the show, it's not much of a problem.

It's comedic, that's good. It doesn't have any forced humor and it was quite realistic within it's bounds. I was sorta worried after realizing that it's not a Pixar produced film sitting in the cinema. But my worries were put to rest after the film started.

Soundtrack! I didn't really paid much attention to the music, but the songs sang, hmm. They were okay, very Disney-like as usual, but I think it doesn't stand up to the older films such as Mulan. However, the musical parts were well executed into the story and flow. For the first time, I didn't felt like saying "Who the hell would suddenly break into a song in a situation like that?!" while pointing straight at the screen.

Maximus the white horse was very funny, I didn't expect them to give the horse any characteristics when I was watching it actually. The green chameleon is pretty cute and funny too.

The story is nice, the tears are a bit of a cliche, but oh well. It's a tale that existed for a long while already, and there was one version that had the magic tear in it so I don't mind this one.

One of the biggest highlights of this film is definitely the lantern scene, I won't go into this at all though, since it'll just lessen the impact for you. So yup, I highly recommend this film if you wanna enjoy a nice fairy tale with friends, families or a partner!

Dear Diary

Had fun with a couple of friends today at Jusco watching Rapunzel and went to the pasar malam at night. Know what's best about pasar malams? The kids! Naughty kids crying and whining about toys and food! Cute kids following their mother or father! Pain in the ass kids at the toy stalls! But mostly, it's the cute little babies and the cute little kids. But, the other kids sure make me feel nostalgic. You could say that beside food and friends, this is my favorite thing about Pasar Malams.

Airplanes In The Night Sky

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky
are shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right, now wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky
are shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right, now wish right now

Yeah, I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
'Cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'
And all the love song and the pain and the heart

And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you starin' at that phone in your lap
And you hopin' but them people never call you back

But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel in the sand
What would you wish for if you had one chance?

So airplane, airplane, sorry I'm late
I'm on my way so don't close that gate
If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Yeah, somebody take me back to the days
Before all the love songs, before all the hate
When bandages were all it took to stop cryin'
Yeah, back when I was tryin' to work for my dreams

And back when I was drawin' for the hell of it
But nowadays we drawin' to get paid
I'm guessin' that if we can make some wishes out of airplanes
Then maybe, oh, maybe I'll go back to the days

Before the dramas that we call life
And back when ain't nobody looked at my drawings
And back before I tried to perfect my art
But this is for everyone, what's up, peeps?

So can I get a wish to enjoy life as it was?
And get back to my dreams that motivated me
So here I stand, and then again I sink
I'm hopin' we can make some wishes out of airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

I could really use a wish right now
I could really use a wish right now
Like, like, like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
A wish, a wish right now


Hm, just felt like doing my own version of Airplanes by B.O.B, can't say it's perfect and I don't dare say it rhymes when I rap it out loud(I didn't try) so yeah, its' more like for fun more than anything. This is one awesome song. Billionaire too :D

GARO!!

I have just watched Garo: Beast of The White Night's making of footages. No doubt about it now! The cast! The director! The crew! Everyone gave their best to the show.

I'd always felt the show before the movie was emotional, full of emotions from the actors and actress, and the action scenes! Well what do you know!? The main protagonist actually does his OWN stunts! Bravo! Bravo! Hardly do you see any real action in Kamen Rider or anything else of the similar genre anymore! And mind you, just because I mentioned Kamen Rider, does not make Garo a child's show. It's aimed at adult audiences. Anyways, less of that and more about the show. After watching these footages, and the main protagonist almost burst into tears after his final scene was filmed, add that to him dressing up in his props and going to the director with a birthday cake, singing Happy Birthday with the show's heroine, and in front of all the crew and cast! God that's touching, so very fucking touching.

I could only dream to work on a set like that. Where everyone were giving it their all, their love into the film, appreciating and even crying when the thing is finally completed and done with!

Watching the interviews with the cast, man. Sure makes me want to be an actor. You know, acting together, laughing together and all that! Ah it seems like such a great experience to behold.

Nay to Negativity!

What a rough year it'd been. New people have I met. Amount those that I'd became enemies with. Those who'd bonded with. Humans, we're ugly creatures indeed. So many things had happened. To me, to some of my friends. I'd seen some people fall in love with each other, and then break up. All within just half a year. How fragile can love be eh? Sorta makes you wonder do you even feel like looking forward to dating the girl you're currently having a crush on anymore, or does it not? Would you rather be optimistic about it and say "We'll make it last, it's real love after all!" Yet, we'd only half a year for most of us to get to know each other. I honestly doubt that's enough for you to know a person enough to actually be in love with her. But oh well. Infatuations and crushes come like this anyways, no stopping it if it does happen. Yet, if you know what I'm talking about, then it'll probably be hard to actually try to stay optimistic all the time. Or perhaps one's just looking at it from too complicating an angle.

We humans, we always change through time. We change and progress every single year, looking back, we all probably have things to laugh about about ourselves, calling our own selves stupid for doing that. Then again, it's always for better or worse. I wonder which I'm changing to? Ah, it just seem so easy to be my past self.

How hard would it take for an instrument to fit into an already existing orchestra?

Friends, come and go in our life. Oh how you wish some would stay but they never did. How you wish your phone would ring every single day. But it doesn't for everyone. "Friends forever" "I love you forever!" Ah, such simple words, yet not many seem to see how heavy the weight of words like "forever" and "never" holds. It's nice, when you have a few buds and you always hang out together. What's sad is when you all drift apart. Either by force, by life, or by their own will. Fights, change of opinions towards each other, disability to communicate on the same page anymore. It's sad to see things go. But once you just stop being on the same pages anymore, it seems quite inevitable for you all to drift apart. Happens to people. Perhaps not to everyone. But I sure know a few.

It's ironic, for a man to say that he find that his collection of figurines and some plastic models kits could give him more comfort than people sometimes, although he has such a dislike for solitary life and people who chooses to lead a solitary life.

Nay! Nay to all these pessimistic talk!!

A rough year as it is. I'm somewhat...glad. Co-ed class, food, futsal, new friends, old friends who doesn't seem to be who I thought they'd be, new lessons, adapting, studying, change of opinions and ideas, believing, forgetting, losing, letting go, changing, moving on, fighting, hate, infatuation, understanding, disagreements and so on. Ah, quite a lot of things. What a roller coaster ride for me this year. Let's hope I'm not in for another downward slope, I can't go for another one yet so soon.

Kamen Rider Den-O review episode 1 - 12

Yeah, last time I tried watching the series, I dropped it at episode 1 after catching glimpse of episode 11. Now, I'd watched from episode 1 to 11 and soon 12, waiting for another HD batch release by TV-Nihon. Anyways;

Surprisingly, I don't hate Momo as much anymore, I like Kintaros when he debuted and stopped liking him after his debut episodes. Ura...didn't entertained me as I thought he would, I'd always had an impression that he's this awesome smooth talker with style. Okay...so he does fulfill that, but not quite the personality I expected I guess.

Hana is hot. :D as for the story. Some of it proves to be interest and fun enough, but it just doesn't seem to keep me coming back for more except for when I was surprised that Kintaros's debut intrigued me. Ryutaro is one hell of a loser too. I doubt I'll ever grow to like him. I hate the train battles too, seems kinda tacked on. I mean..."Imagins going out of control?" I don't really get that theory very clearly. Wonder would they touch more on that later? I don't really like anime-like humor the show has going honestly.

27th of November

So, I ended decided to tag along ckl, Jeannette and Jenny to Parade and McD's today and boy am I glad. Know what happened? I found Bram Stoker's Dracula at Novel Hut, such awesome luck!! Just what I wanted, and it's only RM 9.00! The book is still in good conditions and it doesn't seem damaged at all. Guess someone just needed cash. Sad. Anyhow, I brought the book without a second of hesitation. I pretty much, literally reached out to the book at top speed without a care in the world. Saw the price, purchase. *drumroll*

Then we had some laughs at McD's place, the one in front of Super Kinta. And again, I ended up with ordering a Spicy Chicken McDeluxe large set after all the fuss. *facepalm* the 4 of us spent the rest of the time after eating for photo taking. I only realized I forgot to bring my camera after I was walking with everyone at parade. HAHAHA!

Our Barbecue Party

So 19th November 2010, first day I drank beer. Even Sze Ling and Wee Chie Kuan joined the party. It was hella fun. Lots of laughs, and heh, a lot of tears as well.

Believe it or not, but this is the first time when I'd felt touched and so painful that a friend would be leaving. I'd always felt indifferent or was the blacksheep every where I go. Form 1 to Form 3, wish I cherished it better. Form 4 to 5, wasn't very good either.

Perhaps that's why I'd built up a wall between myself and people, I don't try to get emotionally connected, and I find it quite hard especially with my Form 4 to 5 mates. Wish it went differently. But it didn't. Form 6 is...perhaps my best chance of having a good school life. I'd grown too overly prideful, apathetic and egotistic over the course of the years.

I often feel indifferent to people. Never really had a sense of belonging. Do you know the game where one guy closes his eyes, and the person behind him will catch him and save him from falling to the ground, the trust game? I didn't really had anyone who I believed I would be able to play it with. I always seem emotionless, cruel or cold to people and friends. It's pretty much just a facade I put up. Most of the time, it'd became more than just a facade and I can't really blame anyone for it to be happening.

This year...is quite different. Everyone aren't stingy about money when it comes to gatherings and birthday presents, nobody's racist, and even when there's time we hate each other. We could still band together and chat and have fun. Unlike my previous years. But I guess perhaps that's one of the reasons why I just don't bond well with them?

I can't really think of friends that would make me cry if they leave, but I quite understand when Him said "We'd been classmate since we were in Form 1." Truthfully, I never was able to forge bonds this strong with anyone...watching Iceman and the others crying made me felt like crying as well. It'd only been a while since I'd known em, but damn, the thoughts of Sia leaving is a pretty sharp needle.

Kinda unfair that I joined in the talk when every were drunk besides me. Promise that I'll try and get drunk and have a little talk with everyone too if we get another chance to do it. :)

And Sia, the class's gonna be a lot more quiet with you gone. We're all gonna miss you man. Perhaps we're being very emotional about this, but oh well. Who cares? At least we have the heart to be so, I believe.

HAHAHA, this is the very first time I'm writing an emotional non-private blog entry.

Pasar Malam

Ah how nostalgic

It had been ages literally that I'd been to a Pasar Malam. Today was the first time I went to a pasar malam again. Albeit that they have a lack of products that I fancy to sell and all...then again, it was still fun window shopping. How nostalgic indeed, the kids leaning over the table to look at the toys, having a dilemma on whether which flavor of candy to pick and which type of candy. Sure reminds me of me back in those days. Once I see a toy store I'll be stuck there like glue. Pasar Malams are, still the same as I'd remembered, well...whatever that reminds of my memory of pasar malams anyways. Many people, lights every where, noisy, food, rain, stalls and many other things. Definitely don't remember couples dating in pasar malams though.

K-box!

K-box! K-box! Oh man, I'm addicted now D: Probably gonna be visiting karaokes more often from now on. But it's nothing I can't live without anyways. It's always fun to sing songs with friends. :D

Pretty short time compared to last time though, but this time we only had 4 of us instead of 12 or more. But I guess it's best this way? You don't snatch for the remote control all the time, easier time to pick songs too. Anyways, not much else after that cept that we waited at Jeannette's house and we ended up playing UNO. I tried playing with all my cards open again, sadly I did not win. I still remember the crazy times me and my classmates had back in form 5 with Uno cards. Pretty damn crazy, pretty damn crazy indeed.

Shoot Em All Deead!!

I carpooled a friend's car home today, unexpectedly it turned out to be pretty fun. AHAHAHA! It'd been a long while ever since I used an imaginary gun to shoot at imaginary zombies or monster or people before, with other people playing with me. As childish as it is, it's fun and it's always fun to go back to enjoying things like this, let your inner child have it's fun once in a while. Won't do any harm. :D

Got my report card today, awful results, first time being the second last person in the class. I'd never been this far from the middle before. I want to murder someone or suicide.

Photography Duty Today

I was on duty today due to Yin Hang not being available because of Mr.Dictator Douchebag. Had some fun, but most of all it is tiresome. Oh well, like the song "Remember The Name" by Fort Minor said; 5% pleasure, 50% pain, and a 100% to remember the name.

I think my engines are already off and cold ever since Chapter 7 of maths started after we were done with Chapter 6. Chapter 7 is titled Differentiation, somehow it's so hard to absorb in. == It's nothing like mod maths of Maths S's Chapter 4: Matrices, where I can just remember it without doing much practice. I'm hating this disability to absorb maths. Bleh. Oh well. There's seni.

A bloody B4

Just one mark away from B5...what a bloody disappointment. Worse off, I lost to someone who I never expected to win against me. I mean I won't mind it as much if it was Lai Lin or Calvin Tan who won against me(I would mind, just not as much. I'm competitive that way.), who got a band higher than me or on the same band with higher marks than me. BUT FUCK! I didn't expect someone else instead to win. Fucking disappointed, I'll never get over this. Motherfucking hell, I can't accept it. I'm a perfectionist and a very competitive dude, this is bothering me like crazy. English and Mod Maths had always been part of my territory. Now someone who I didn't believe will step on me stepped on me. God damn, damn it all to hell.

Anyhow still, Mr.Ibrahim's willing to help me out with seni. So now I don't need to worry too much about failing maths. I still want to pass it mind you.

Got a Way Got a Way?

So I found I can use Visual Arts to cover for maths, now the big problem is finding a teacher willing to help guide me and do all the work and shit. Nobody knows anyone from Anderson who takes this subject either. I'll be surprised if someone helped me find people to contact with for this subject. Like 1/100 chance? Damn, suddenly it seems like a good idea to opt to transfer to Anderson. Won't really make a difference for me to be here or there anyways. Anyhow, need to dig out information, next is to somehow convince Mr.Ibrahim to help out...oh that's probably gonna be hard.

Oh well. Life never wasn't a bitch anyways.

SMI and ST Friendly

Followed Iceman today to Samtet to be the photographer for the friendly basketball match between Sam Tet and St.Michaels. St.Michael loses by 10 marks at the first 3 round, but on the last 3 minutes of the last round, it was hella awesome! Go take a look at the video on my facebook when it's uploaded and you'll see why. :D

As for school itself today, let's just say I manage to talk to Mr.Ravi and get some valuable information. Oh yeah, it's also my very first time stepping foot in Sam Tet, god it looks big from the inside!! Didn't really had much a tour though since I only stayed at the basketball court, but it's pretty nice. I forgot to bring a t-shirt today and am I glad daokei was there today as well. Otherwise I'll be the only one wearing school uniform at that hour- Oh, Toon came later wearing his school uniform, makes three of us then.

Sam Tet 6th Form girls are...well, there are more Sam Tet girls that satisfies my taste than SMI girls. Short hair girls!! :D

Got bitched at by somebody at school today too, only a peddle on my road. Gonna get some demerit but oh well, who cares. Anyways, he sure suck at reading people's facial expressions. I swear I will assume anyone who reacted the way I did(looking to the side while thinking on a respond.) to be thinking. Oh but nope, he thought "Don't you show this sickening look again next time, if it's other teachers they would had already slapped you."

I was like "what the fuck? I was just thinking." Hell, I even bit my lips at one point while trying to think up a respond for his reactions. Speaking of which, he never blinks. I should had played the staring contest with him instead of thinking.

Bleh. I got my badge taken and demerit forms to be given to me, and Calvin's on suspension. To wear a tie in a non air-conditioned area in Malaysia even in the morning is hot, freaking hot. Cut people some slack to not wear the tie jeez, not even Pn.Tan minds it, and what? She's the head of the 6th Form department. For anyone's information, I'd went to see Pn.Tan or went into the 6th form office more than 5 times without my tie and badge. I hate wearing badges by the way, the needle tears my shirt and leave holds behind, while the clip makes the badge drops down. Doesn't look decent at all. The color being the ugly yellow doesn't help one bit. Sure, full attire can mean discipline, but then again, a tie and an ugly badge doesn't really help. Blame whoever's responsible for not producing the sweet looking metal monitor badge anymore cause I sure as hell would wear that badge. In theory, the idea of a badge that shows which class you're the monitor of is fancy, but in execution? Please keep that ugly yellow out of my sight. Seriously, black would had been a nice contrast to our uniform.

Now that I'm done ranting about an useless pebble, time to slip past it and enjoy life. Only 365 days in a year, gotta live like we're dying :D

Joy In Comiking

Oh I just love it when I get compliment in real life about my comic when a person really read it.:D But more often then not people only give me vague, general description and compliments. Haven't come across anyone who can actually comment and give constructive criticism on it. The others who read comics or draw in form 6? Eh, don't know em well so all I get are gonna be general responds like "Not bad," "Hey, you drew this yourself? Not bad, o.o" and that's pretty much it and I never get responds from some others.

Been listening to Elvis's songs again, K-box sucks for having just 3 Elvis Presley songs. Bah. Net speed still not improving, damn streamyx, assholes. Now, maths I can't with all the e^x and ln and logs and crap. It's just so much harder to absorb than mod maths it seems. Bleh, Gonna ask the others how to do it tomorrow. Gonna draw a picture for a friend for now.

So ends another week

Well, nothing much. Futsal was cancel this week since other schools just finished their exams and we don't have enough people to play. My net speed still sucks, but the weather sure is nice! :D Saturday and Sunday were normal, and I managed to pump up 4 new pages of my comic "Knight's Requiem." Located at

www.aknightsrequiem.smackjeeves.com

Big achievement right there!

GARO

For anyone who heard me talking about knights and stuff, well this is the title of that particular show.

First, let us start with the Graphics, designs and visual effects, it's simply amazing for a 2005 series. The designs are perfect. There's nothing I don't love, from the costume of the protagonists to the antagonists, the design of the monster suits are also perfect. Suuuure, call it a kid's show for it's a series about knights slaying demons that eat humans at night, but read on, skip the nudity, gigantic nude fanservices, matured themes, gory graphics, and violent fights. Weaponry looks real and metal-like, the armor the protagonists wears to slay demons from hell called Horrors looks realistic, like really made of metal, it was a very nice touch for them to actually make it look like they were wearing heavy suits of metal that restrain movements a bit. You can get the illusion of that the armors are really heavy.

Secondly the Acting, top notch beside a few here and there. I really like the facial expressions that the main cast of characters manages to do, they look genuine and very believable, big props to Kaoru too, her crying and laughing looked and sounded very real. Even the supporting character, Gonza the butler to Kouga(the main protagonist)had more than just a few lines. He actually was a pillar of the cast as well. I'm not sure of his age, but he pulls off the tone changing very well. Him acting goofy doesn't feel out of place in this very serious series, but when he's pissed, he manages to make people take him seriously instead of remembering him as the "goof-ball" of Garo. The antagonist also composed all the opening and ending songs, and sung every one of those songs too. Kinda shows how they are dedicated to this.

You can get very attached to the characters, the show actually spends time building up the characters and making you feel for them instead of just feeling like you're a third party dude watching the whole thing happen.

Pacing and the balance between the drama and the action levels of the series is also very well thought out. It has some really inspiration and innovative way of filming. Everything fits into place very well, and there aren't any plotholes. The story ties to the epilogue of the series very well, the epilogue is a movie called Garo Beast Of The White Night, and I haven't seen any movie that had such a perfect blend of action and drama in a long while. The fight choreography is also top notch, they don't abuse their armors, and there's a time limit to their usage of the armor as well, and this end up with majority of the fight scenes being the actors themselves(or stuntmen) doing it. I never really thought a story like this could work out so wonderfully. Definitely a very emotional, inspiring and good series and movie.

I could only wish I could write something like this or be one of the protagonist actors in a show like this. This show has just made it to the top of my list along with a few shows.

Heeeyyy o

Nothing much to say. Maths result, 22/100, MUET, definitely not getting a B6, PA, failing on PS. Perhaps I should drop form 6 and quickly go and apply for colleges.

Oh, and I have added one new link to the Other Odysseys list.

And Thus

The chapter of Kyle's 2010 is gonna be closing soon. Hm, ah time sure passes by fast. I could use a dose of 2007 really. But all we can ever do is just look forward. 2010's gonna end soon, best rejoice in the moment instead. This year's life at SMI is really...something else than all the years I'd been here. Oh, speaking of which, apparently yesterday was the day that our sitting positions switched. Iceman and the others felt like sitting in front it seems. First day I'm absent to school this year and I don't even know if I'd missed anything? Na na na, I'm addicted to Oh My Goddess by Trax. Seo Joo Hyun in the music video looked stunning. :O I think I had really fallen in love this time!

Yan Lin's Birthday Party

It was a pretty fun day. I couldn't get a car so I was pretty late for the party. Most of the A3 people went beside the girls, excluding Shi Yun and Yan Lin, the birthday girl herself. First we went to K-box and pretty much sang from 2pm to 5.30pm. Note to self, never sing "Just The Way You Are" again in public, not even when I have a girl to sing it to. I sounded terrible singing it. My voice didn't really suit the tone of the song. At least that's how I heard it. D: Had some fun singing If I Had You, Airplanes, Make Me Wonder, This Love, and a hella lot of Westlife songs. Tried rapping Love The Way You Lie too. I'm officially loving karaoke!!

Speaking of Karaoke, K-box's timing and lyrics for some of the english songs aren't accurate. Especially on If I Had You, Pretty Woman and Airplane. Pretty Woman's timing wasn't very bad, but the lyrics weren't accurate. Bah. I do think that every was surprised that I know this song though. :D The last two songs we sung were Baby by Justin Beiber, which we mocked by singing in a very forced high tone and Secondhand Serenade's Fall For You. Oh yeah, we also sang I Don't Want To Miss A Thing by Aerosmith because the one who picked the song went out for the moment when it played. We failed miserably at the last part where the screaming starts.

After k-box, we went to M.P, but before that, everyone going to MP using Phang's car went to Secret Recipe and brought a cake for Yan Lin, the cake was called Indulgence. Then we ate for hours on at MP. Urgh...and then we had the cake...which was very big and...urgh. You can see how full we all were yesterday since I can't even talk about it without getting a bit sick.

Futsal Again!!

I went to station 1 cafe this morning, god I love their menu...'s design!! The food isn't bad, but I actually focused more on looking at the design of the menu instead of the food. I was like "oh shit!!" when the waitress came to get our orders. Got some batteries for my camera for tomorrow. Karaoke and steamboat tomorrow. It's Yan Lin's birthday. Ah, and did you know? Karaoke is pronounced Car-A-O-K by japanese people and Care-re-o-ke by westerners. So they are both correct I guess. I do have to admit I like saying the latter more though. =/

Damn, couldn't get a goal this time. XD Had a fun night with the usual cast, Iceman, Phang, Calvin Tan, Sia, Daokei and many others, ah! And a new face today is Safar! :D We all had fun now didn't we? Anyways, after futsal, we went to gunung rapat for dinner. Phang went to Bercham's McDonald's lol. Owned!! Anyways, gotta run an errand for Miss Siti before Monday comes. Considering that I won't have time tomorrow, I better do it now.

Tis The Season

And the exam's are officially over! I screw up question 1. Even though I'd done it before. Bah. I guess I couldn't adjust to the time limit just yet. 1 hour and a half sure passes by fast. Need to start mastering critical thinking and have faster writing speed. This can't go on if I want myself a big Band 6.

Tis' the season of Halloween, of the things that goes bump in the depth of night. Time to bring out the scary ideas and stuff and apply them into paintings or drawings or whatever. It'll actually be awesome to dress up as a vampire to photoshoot to celebrate my comic's birthday. But then again, my comic's birthday is on the 25th of November. 20 days after a good friend of mine's birthday. :D

Tomorrow night's futsal, Sunday afternoon would be Karaoke and at night? MP! It's Yan Lin birthday too so yeah :D Speaking of more birthdays, it's Kitty's birthday today too. So many birthdays on October to November huh?

One More Day To Go!

Tomorrow's the last paper! PP wasn't so easy, Econs today, well it was surprisingly the easiest paper so far. I guess maybe it's cause me and a few others have basics while everyone else doesn't. I love C.S Lewis's quotes, stumbled upon one on Criminal Minds and googled his other quotes, besides the ones directly about god and Christianity? I nodded my head.

Getting very close to the end of GARO now. 25 episodes series, good acting, awesome soundtrack, support characters are well written and not wasted, good story, matured(not necessarily a point but for all those who refuses to watch shows about people who can transform into another form to fight great evil bla bla), nudity, awesome kickass battles, golden armors, very nice designs and choreography, but ehhh I doubt you guys will bother to know more about this. But it sure is one of my favorite shows now.

Now, to get more pictures of it. Hm. I'll either put my character or a Garo Knight into the class tshirt. I need to get it done and finished before Sia leaves.

3 out of 5 Battles Lost

Guessing by title and the fact that I'm having a one week exam, I guess you can understand what the title's supposed to mean huh? The exam's not going so great. I'm definitely flopping it. =/ Too far in now to switch subjects. I sure wished there was an option to pick Visual Arts and still stayed in SMI. That way at least I KNOW I won't be flopping Visual Arts. Bah. Oh well, life's a bitch and it always will be.

I'd been watching more Bones and Criminal Minds lately. Gotta say I sorta regret it, getting very into it right now. Today's episode kinda creep me out a bit. I like the psychology in the show, and those fitting quotes at the beginning and ending of the show. The cast's good and all, none of them is a douchebag. I thought Hotch would had been a douchebag but in the same episode, yeaahhh, changed my mind. Reid's interesting. The black guy? Nothing much, the blond girl? CUTIE PIE! HOT :D and with brains! Speaking of brains, there's Gracia if I remember her name correctly, she's well...I like her a lot in today's episode.

As for Bones? Well, I just like the cast and how they interact with each other I guess.

That's it about shows. Now about music!! So I was listening to MTV's Japanese and Korean hits. I saw this band called Trax singing this song called Oh! My Goddess(The reason why I stood around to watch it was because Ah! My Goddess is a title of an anime that I like, so I was like "Oh? This is a korean song right?) AND call me perasan but the lead singer in that music video with that hairstyle? That's almost the same as my hairstyle :D I'm so awesome!! Oh, and then I discovered what exactly is this "2NE1" thingy. I was actually entertained when I figured out I could read it as 'To Anyone.' As for their music, not my sorta music I guess. I switched to another program for the whole duration of their song right after it started. Think the name's Go Away or something.

E.X.A.M 18th Oct

Excruciating. Xtra hard. Awwww. MOTHERF-

Anyways, the lower six finals started today! Oh hell. First battle and we're already losing the war. Tomorrow's the fight against PA and PS. Hopefully I can do well on the PS part, I honestly have no hope no the PA part. My bahasa's borderline crap. Literally crap. Yes, it can be that bad. I mean, I'd been failing BM since forever, except in UPSR, PMR and SPM. Super lucky. I must thank the teachers who marked my paper. Seriously, I need to. =)

How wonderful would it be if Economics and Business Studies was taught in english right? How wonderful would it be to have Visual Arts for Form 6 at SMI. God, I can already imagine me in an art class with people that shares the same passions and will be competing with me in the future to be a pro. But alas, NONE of that will ever become a reality. Unless I jump into a parallel universe, which too is not a possibility- oh who knows?

As soon as the exam's over. Party time baby! My blog needs a new look for news year. I'm not a Christmas person so I can use Christmas for some fruitful developments on either my comic, life or whatever that I can think of that day. Bleh. I hate Christmas. No, don't convince me to like it. Please, feel free to call me The Scrooge. Go ahead, but only on Christmas Eve and on Christmas itself alright?

I'm gonna go crazy on the holidays for sure! My Gundam model kits! My comic! Babies wait for me :D

15th of October

Another normal school day has gone. Carpooled with Jeanette and Vivian since it's friday. NO! I don't want to wait till 2PM for my bus! D: So much time wasted. I could be, blogging, reading, writing, doing whatever I pleases with. Not to mention I have tuition at 6pm every Friday, so it's an hour or two more are a great help. Ate the blackforest jelly ice-cream today. I thought mine didn't really had much jelly in it until I ate the bottom part of it. ;D Anyways, I still want to try that chocolate corn where they have a KitKat in the middle of the ice cream. D: I haven't seen it around, or I guess it could be me not noticing it when I do go take a look.

I play to play badminton twice weekly or so this coming holidays. First off, I need people to actually join me, there's Jeanette and Jerry I guess? Next up is to find a court that's easily reachable and find a time that won't conflict with anyone's plans. Exam's coming in 2 days. Ohhhh shit. I haven't even study, and this is the FINALS we're talking about. I'm actually surprised to know a bit of the story of a girl from my class. Hahaha! Never knew she used to be like that. Oh, and Shing Yee, I'm still not buying whatever you said that she said about me. :D

14th of October 2010

Nothing much today as well. My MSN list is still small ;) Maths' a total torture, I'll probably fail my finals. Urgh, no time for any sort of revisions or anything at all. It just feel so tight up.

Garo has been an amazing show so far, I'm loving all of it!

I found the song called Sweet Victory, it was played in an episode of Spongebob, god that was super awesome! In a way it sorta bring back memories too.

I wish I have the time to draw and stuff =/

13th of October

Countdown to exams. Pretty close, but I don't feel like studying at all. Damn. Seems like everyone's feeling like quitting form 6. Perhaps this is the feeling of fighting a losing war eh? Anyways, I think I'm starting to get back my feelings for drawing and stuff. I haven't really been feeling it. I wanna draw some realistic stand alone portraits actually. My comic, A Knight's Requiem's birthday's drawing near as well. I need some help to do a photo of me looking like a vampire to celebrate it's 1 year anniversary. =) Time passes by so damn fast huh? Recently, I'd started talking to Maria again, but I doubt anyone who reads this blog knows who she is. An oversea friend if you guys must know. =)

Well, gotta fight the fight now! Nothing much happened at school today, but I sure as hell like Differentiation more than Functions on Maths S. Which are Chapter 7 and Chapter 6. Function can go die for all I care. >:(

E-Diary

A blog to me, is pretty much an E-diary that you want people to read, be it specific people or the public. To share your day perhaps. Oh well. That's what I think. But that doesn't mean I'll update everyday, sometimes there are just days that aren't worth remembering or noting. Also, I'm finding less and less time to blog. Bah.

Lots of homework today. I had let them pile up...urgh. Back to homework. School had been pretty normal nowadays too. But I still wish cameras were allowed in school. Bah.

First Goal! A nostalgic ride

After school today(yes, saturday, I know. :( ) went to Parade to hang out with Sam and others, initially the plan was to help Sam pick his formal wear for work. Since I haven't been hanging out with them for a while now. Only right to start hanging with em again. So I got to Parade after school thanks to a ride from Phang, lucky! Met Kitty there as well. She was wandering around trying to find where Novel Hut is on the Ipoh Parade part, instead of Parkson. XD

Phang Yee Lim, Iceman, Daokei, Sia Jun Bin, and a few other guys who I don't know the name of went over to extreme park today to play soccer. Sorry I was late guys. Won't happen next time hahahahaa! I hope. :D Hopefully I'll be able to remember the road. Won't be betting on it though. Anyways, along the way back, I took a different road than what I had in mind, the place where my ex lives. Ha! Anyways, scored my first goal! Feel so awesome now :D We should had all gone to go pick up girls instead of doing anything else. XD Ohh! Calvin had taken the most shots to the stomach today. Phang and Calvin were the keepers. I have a football-ball or basketball-ball phobia sorta thing, so I can't be a keeper. I almost hit Iceman with a few shots. Wasn't on purpose! I swear!! To sum it up, it was an awesome day and night. :D

I feel like doing some photos that has to do with vampires or look gothic. I'm into stuff like these it seems. Eh, comes from writing a vampire comic probably.

Picking a Pen Over a Briefcase

Someone today in class asked me "Would this feed you?" while I was drawing, coincidentally, episode 8 of Garo, which I also watched today was talking about "my reason for picking up a pen."

Well, to be perfectly honest and frank, no. Not really. It probably won't be able to fit me. The things that i draw, my skills, my passion. It measures to nothing in this business world, where money matters more than anything else. More than love, more than passion, dreams, ambitions, friendship, relationships and humanity apparently. Futile to deny that.

It may suck, our future may never be certain, we need to worry if we can land jobs or not when we graduate from studies, worry if our skills can carry us far or not, and if it can, how far can it go? We want to be famous don't we? We want to earn money, be successful both as an artist of any kind, be it to be a video director, advertisement, a painter, an actor, or even a dancer, and earn money as well. Yeah, it may very well suck. To be people like us who prefer to chase dreams, risk life, exchange a stable office job for an uncertain line of work where you might not succeed. But we're born like that unfortunately.

You know what? All that's fine, even if I can't feed myself, or my family. I can't deny my dreams and wishes. I want to be famous, I want the fame and wealth. I want to let the world know me. Yeah, being a celebrity. I'll like that. Do I even remember my reason for picking up a pen though? No. I don't. At least not anymore.

Do I love it? Yes, I assume I do. Ever since a child, I loved drawings, admired complex drawings, though I'm not so expressive myself. Shit happens, that's life. I'd once decided to stop dreaming. God was I freaking miserable. Nah, I don't want to live a life I do not want, I'm an idealist, born this way, fuck it! What am I doing here in Form 6? Seni Visuals. Anderson, St.Michael, FUCK! Perhaps I should had went to The One Academy or something instead, but oh well. I'll picked form 6, out of my own volition. I'm having a bit of a "what if" and "if only" moment here, but still. Damn. It'll be pretty hard for me to catch up in art universities when I do get there. Worse yet I'll have to apply for colleges next year. One year wasted. I want to be famous, known to the world and successful as fast as possible. I wish I have a great singing voice and connections to famous people. =/

Hell, our dreams are bullshit to some people. They don't see the value in it, it's but a waste of time and effort to them, it can be put to better use to produce something like a new project for the company or homework, hell.

But it's as if I can pretend I didn't pick up a pen rather than a briefcase anyways. So there you have it. Regardless of whether I can feed myself or not, if my future's certain or not. I'm risking it, I'll gamble on this path and the first step to take is by the end of this year, decide on what courses I plan to be doing. Animations? illustrations and comics? Acting? Dancing?(nah) Singing?(nah.) graphic designs? multimedia design? I need some inspiration. True I need to give my ALL in form 6. BUT! I cannot afford to disconnect myself from the industry of arts anymore! I feel so disconnected now! I don't know the latest trends, I don't even remember how to be creative anymore.

It's time for me to remember why did I pick up a pencil in the first place.

Butterflies

Oh c'mon guys, how is Butterfly Kisses not a sweet sweet awesome song? Along with Runaway Train, very nice!! I officially declare MUET time in my class a fun time to be in. :D Anyways, sooner or later I'm gonna burn around RM 240 to get SIC Volume 55, which is SIC Kamen Rider Stronger and Tackle. God they look awesome. MUST HAVE...EM!! Anyways, not touching homework today since my class and A1 aren't going to be at school tomorrow. SCORE!! Remember to be a good photographer, always bring spare battery and another camera, aka my phone. :D Hopefully there'll be time for us to pose around and take pictures. =)

Anyways, I haven't been blogging lately, not much time actually. I'd been focusing on my comic A LOT. Well, now it's time to push back to studies. No, literally into studies. Needa push if I don't want to see 22/22 on my report card where the class position will be shown. Sooner or later, I need to get my MG Char's Zaku to get a coating and make him feel very special. I'd neglected my model kits long enough!! The year end holiday, oh it's definitely gonna be busy! :D Not that I won't like it though, I hate not being able to socialize with people. One day without chatting with people and I'll just die. I'd also rediscovered some of the older songs of Eminem, I swear, they are awesome. Especially stuff like When I'm Gone. Not the newest songs. =)

Monitorial Board Farewell & Others

So on monday, the past monday, the one right after the 6th Form Evening Prom was the Monitorial Board farewell party. It was sweeet, fun as hell and the food was good. Don't have that much time to blog so yeah. Leaving now :D

6th Form Evening Prom

Call it a Prom Night, an Evening Prom, a Graduation Day, whatever. In the end it's that it's boringly fun is what matters the most. If you get what I mean anyways. The food however. God I feel like asking for my RM 15 back. Well yeah...beside the food, it's all good, really!

Anyways, the performances, well they were nice. The highlights would be Viva La Vida with a full cast, Just the Way You Are by Terence, and one instrumental song that I couldn't catch the name of. Well, that's the highlight for me, but I think everyone would say otherwise. As for the models, aw I wanted to get first place. :( But oh well. Congratulations to the King and Queen, Prince and Princess and the Models. Not putting the name up here though. Anyway, glad I went. Now I'm a bit tired.

25 November 2009

Ts the birthday of my comic. I'm a jerk for not remembering it. =.= Anyhow, today was the rehearsal for the 6th form evening. Yan Lin couldn't make it so me and Ho walked alone. Well, he ran ahaha! Anyways, that's all I had time for, left afterward.

Not-A-Social-Party-Evening-"Prom"

First you turn a prom night into an evening prom, now you are telling me it's not a social party to celebrate what the Uppersixes have gone through and a farewell for them in a way? That all the ladies will have to wear long sleeves and skirts must be around the knee(okay, this part is rational), but the rest? WTF? Stress and seriousness is good, but 24/7 of stress and seriousness for the whole year will do you more harm than good.

Dude, I am seriously pissed about this. I mean, c'mon, it's meant to be fun isn't it? For EVERYONE to enjoy themselves, won't matter if the teachers joins or not, as long as everyone who participate will have fun, but how the hell are you gonna expect a "not a social party evening prom that you must absolutely leave school and go back home once it's over at night fall" to be fun and enjoyable for any one of the parties involved?! Talk about disappointment, and we were ALL hyping over about this. Like how it'd be fun, like how it'd be entertaining, like how everyone's gonna be smiling. Oh now it's just gonna be filled with a serious and silent vibe. Like hell is that gonna be fun. Talk about total disappointment.

I mean, short skirts aren't allowed, fair enough. But long sleeves and a scarf on every single girl? What the hell? We know this is a school, but what the hell people? Can't you be a bit laid back and enjoy the party? The rules already said no overexposure, but not wearing long sleeves is technically not overexposure, unless you're following muslim laws. If I didn't buy any clothing for this "not a social party" I would had protested against having a party at all. I hope the food's worth the RM 15, please don't shove us with Nasi Lemak and some fried mee. Seriously, I'll stomp out of the Not A Social Party immediately

Sunday Sunday Oh Sunday

Ok, let's pretend like this never happened
Like I never had dreams of being a big hit
Like I didn't write comics in all of my classes
Like I never use to runaway into the blackness

Now lets pretend like it was all-good
Like I didn't picked to be in the art-stream
Like I did the things I probably knew I should
But I proscastinated that's why we're here at where we stand

Now lets pretend like I'd got a name
And they start to call me K a.k.a Kyle Yeoh
I'm talking bout all the love
Like interviews and the deals and the fame
Like they will compare me to Picasso
That they saw my comic
That they noticed my face
So let's just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes

Can't we pretend it's Saturday every day? I'd been pretty addicted to Airplanes by B.O.B and Hayley actually. Well, not that I wasn't already when I came across the song. I like Dream On by Aerosmith cover version by the Glee cast and If I Had You by Adam Lambert a lot too. They are pretty much the few songs that always are on my playlist for days on straight. Especially Airplanes be it part 1 or part 2. Both parts are still great.

Just went to Jusco to help my brother shop for some formal clothing for his Military Band concert performance. Padini lol. Damn, wish I had something like that back in form 1. Oh well, at least I have some now. I'm happy. I can't wait for the next holidays, though I'll have to go through the final exams huh? Darn.

My comic now has 21 fans on Smackjeeves. :D Awesome eh?! I wish I can hit the 100 fans mark soon. =/ Oh yeah, and I'd realized not so long ago, sometimes you can realize a few things while being in a car on the high way on a long enough trip.

Fun Saturday

So yesterday I went out with Sam, Philippe and Chee Loong for a movie before founding out that Parade's cinema sucks. Oh c'mon! No Grown Ups, no Vampire Sucks?! What the heck!? I don't want Resident Evil Afterlife! So we ended up going to the cyber cafe Inet instead at greentown. Played Left 4 Dead then played Counter, once we got bored the manager of the place invited Sam to play the online version. Oh damn it was fun. We now know a fun way to enjoy Counter Strike for a prolonged time. :O Otherwise, we didn't touch Gundam SD at all. I didn't want to get addicted to it again. Bleh.

Pretty fun day, slept at 9pm, woke up at 1am and then did some maths and then went back to bed at 5am after some early morning supper. Damn, I gotta stop doing that. Got myself a fedora hat too. Though I'm not too happy with it. It's the strawy type. A year later or so I'm gonna get a fur-based type I guess. Anyhow, other than that there's nothing much of interest to speak of. Haven't noticed any change in any of em though. So yeah. Beside Harris. But that's another case.

Livelier!!

Sia joined the Maths tuition class I'd been going to for a few times already. Aha! The place feels a bit more livelier now! I actually interacted with others that I don't know. Yays! Hell, I don't feel like I belong in the class for every single second I sit there. Everyone's a science streamer, or at least had been one. Nobody to share the pain of being a pure art-streamer with no add maths basics with me. Bleh. Not to mention I'd noticed a few weeks back that someone I never planned on meeting again goes for tuition there. Talk about coincidences, not to mention she's from the same school too, now. Life can be a pretty big mean bitch sometimes eh? Oh well. I'd already moved past that, don't plan to look back any time soon, as if there's any reasons or meaning to look back anyways. :D

Anyhow, hm. It's hard to imagine you know? We were wearing blue pants, then suddenly we started wearing green. God, it felt sorta weird. But then suddenly...everyone started wearing jeans at colleges, black pants at work and white pants in Form 6. I'd never expect myself to wear white pants to school, really! Still a bit hard to believe once I pause and take a look. Who'd imagine me of all people would go for Form 6 out of my own volitional eh? I'd got some pretty nice things happening I guess, but it has it's bitter side too. Hmp. But oh well, who cares anymore? Anyways, school's full of drama. Be it love, rumors or gossips, fights, arguments, teachers, douchebags, people in general. Well it's not like anywhere else's different right?

Gonna go hang out with Sam and the others tomorrow, it'd been a long time.

School & Drama

HA! Holiday's coming to an end, gotta work on homework and stuff tomorrow. Oh god. Wish I have more time to work on my comic. Shouldn't had sat around until this week to work on my comic. =/ Oh well...at least I'd got some page views :D Sometimes, it makes me feel sorta lonely reading Bakuman. It'd be fun to have someone to discuss comic, story writing, drawing and all that deeply and passionately with me. But oh well. Not like- Anyhow, hm. I wonder would one more page hurt...better not work on anymore pages tomorrow. Blah. I swear, school and dramas goes hand in hand, then again what else doesn't? Work, school, home, everything. Drama happens everywhere and anytime in a sudden way or in a subtle and hidden way. That's why we say "shit happens" sometimes.

Ah crap.

Suddenly the holidays seems so short. == 3 more days till school starts again. Damn, haven't even touch a bit of my homework. Oh well. Will do it on Wednesday. Bleh. I still don't know if I want to go to school on Friday, see how eh? Oh yeah, still haven't went and grab myself a fedora hat. Hmp. Well, nothing much's happening these days. Okay, on second thought, NOTHING's happening around me here. Bleh, staying at home on the holidays sucks.

Raya Raya Raya!!

Oh man, I totally forgot today's Raya and drove to the tuition center. ==" Hm, that's pretty much all that is notable for today. I'd been playing Silent Hill 2 recently, it's so intriguing, it's not like Resident Evil where...well, it's a survival game with horror elements. Silent Hill 2 felt more like...I don't know, they don't feel they same, for one thing it scares you by using it's atmosphere, music and details. Creepy details in there, really! Ah multiple endings, just what I need. Geez, I hate multiple endings that doesn't label themselves as Bad Ending, Normal Ending and Perfect Ending. For continuity and consistency sakes of course. Anyhow, enough with rants!

Selamat Hari Raya people!!

I'm actually surprised that so many racist cases are going around on this season. People people, what a disgrace to humanity. I'll rather not talk about it since I don't need my blog to be stained with those racist folk's names and deeds.

Another case, dammit! People who drives to Fatimah Hospital, learn to freaking read the signboards! It clearly said one way road!! I'm fed up with giving way when I don't need to. LEARN TO DRIVE ASSHOLES!! Especially if you have a big car!

W, Rider Kick

So ends the Rider series of this particular year. And hell was it fun! Finally!! A REAL Kamen Rider! Not a gadget named Kamen Rider, not a suit of armor called Kamen Rider and neither is it an asshole who calls himself a Kamen Rider!! But two person who protect the city that they deeply loved. The name wasn't just a label either, it was what the citizen has given to them, for wearing a mask and riding a bike to deliver justice.

Okay, gonna let my hype get over and cam whored a few tribute photos for Kamen Rider W, I'll write a review on it. Now, time to talk about today. I had practice with Jean at her house today, tried to improvise the song a bit. Sorta tiring for some reason.

Grown Ups

Watched the movie today. We all finally decided on watching that instead of Vampire Sucks, though I still want to watch it. =/ Bleh, gotta get someone to go watch it with me. Grown Ups was funny as hell. Pretty nice, a movie with lots of moral value actually. Spent some money at the bowling center and ate some sushi. Ah the holidays! Might as well let loose a bit!!

2 Days Of Fun

So, I went to Taiping on Saturday with my father, brother and my father's friends. We did go over to Meru Valley's Suites first, my dad's friends stayed at the Allamanda Suites apartments. God, the place's awesome and nice, the only thing lacking that I realized is that they don't have many fancy flowers for me to take pictures of. It's a tiny bit too quiet for me though. But you know me, I hate places that are too quiet. Don't like the illusion of that the place's empty-ish. Anyhow, they have their own swimming pool. How surprising!!!!!! Anyways, took a lot of pictures when we went over to Taiping, had fun with a friend's fedora hat too. Though she pasted a ribbon on the left side so I had to take every shot of me wearing a fedora hat facing left to not include the ribbon. But I was still damn manly and sexy. :D I make fedora hats with a ribbon on it look manly~ it was pretty fun, we went over to the Taiping Zoo and Lake before that.

The Zoo, well I think it was worth it. The animals there all seem healthy enough. The tour guide however, maan, Malay Language, otherwise I might had understood a bit. They don't seem to explain things about the animals, just tell the name of the animal while scrolling through. Bleh. As for the lake, nothing special beside we made a stop at the playground, the kids went and play at there and me and the girls went over to the lake side to take photos, that's when I took pictures with the fedora hat. My brother and the other adults were all sitting in the car or were at the playground though. Some of them came later on to the lakeside, gotta thank em for helping me take photos of myself. :D

After that, we got a bit tired and split up and went to go eat toasted bread, the other group ate some Bak Kut Ter. Then right after that,we went back to Meru Suites and my and my family took off after we finished guiding my dad's friend back to Meru. They're from KL so they don't know which road to take to make a turn back to Meru, honestly, I don't know either. :D At night we went to a chinese fried mee place, I forgot the name but it's in Old Town, kinda okay. Well, not my thing anyways. Then we left for Indulgence. The cappuccino brownie was awesome!

It was a pretty fun day eh? Second day, my dad friend's wanted to go the caves, perak caves and etc. I wasn't very interested and all so we kinda ended up staying in Bercham for breakfast, then we went to Tesco to buy food and everything else we to stock up on. Then we went over their Suites. Brought over the PS2, played Silent Hill 2 for a short while and then we played a Gundam game. The kids, ahaha, kids will be kids I guess. Arguing, fighting, guiding, and trying their hardest. Ah the time of being a kid. Then we went to Thong Ku Ten for our dinner. Let's just say the girls ordered too much food and I shouldn't had ordered rice. D: After that we, we all went our separate ways as my father's friends are gonna go back to KL. Got back home, heard some news about something and went to back a few hours after that. Sorry, no pictures here. But they are on my Facebook. Too lazy to fix em up here. =)

Welcome to Windy City

Don't stop painting, even if the paint always run on the black and white canvas of yours. Just don't stop and even try and help others paint theirs as well regardless of whether they want it or not and perhaps, just maybe sooner or later a few others would pick up a brush and help paint your canvas as well as you all paint each other's canvas. Now won't the be pretty colorful? It might be short and end pretty quickly as the paint always runs. But true beauty doesn't seem to last forever anyway. Probably that's why it's perfect and beautiful.


Me and Jimmy Loh were having fun talking about basically anything that comes to mind these two days at Wisma Taiko. It really makes you wonder how and why can Wisma always be that Windy even though St.Michael and anywhere else isn't as windy is it? Weird, maybe it's the structure of the building? Or the area? Or it's ventilation system perhaps? Oh well! All I know is, I love the wind there.

HOLIDAY'S STARTED! 2 weeks! 2 days of homework and every other day for fun!! Got laughed at by Pn.Ratan when I couldn't count 1/4 multiple by 6 though. I'm too used to using calculators. Bleh. D: Need to watch Vampires Sucks. No more delaying, last time I delayed Toy Story 3, I missed it in the cinema! Dammit! I never missed a Toy Story movie in the cinema! A BIG FUCK! So hell no. No more delaying :D Watch it today, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. I'm gonna love it! A whole movie dedicated to making fun of Twilight! Aha! Hm, so much for my camwhoring idea, lost my mood to do it anymore. Though I have another idea. Too bad I don't have enough space to do it...then again, hey maybe I could. Need to get some props though.

I just started to listen to some of Adam's song, I kinda like how he dressed up for the song called For Your Entertainment, guess I do dig gothic-ish stuff and all. Not like I'm not writing a vampire comic anyways. I can't believe how he's rejected the hate he gets for just being homosexual. I'll never understand people who hate homosexual or bisexual people. As long as they are happy. Besides, I'm liking Whataya Want From Me for a reason now. :D

Oh, and finally! It's time to download as much Kamen Rider as I can and watch as much as I can while I play as many games as possible. All this while hanging out with friends outside(hopefully.). Just one movie in two weeks of holidays? Hell no if you ask me. =)

HOMEWORK

Oh ouch, bleh, seems like we always fail to deliver what our MUET teacher wants. == Oh well. I'd noticed a few other things too. Hm, wonder how things will turn out soon? We'll see. Anyways, hm, people who want to watch Vampire Sucks are pretty scattered. Calyvn haven't watch it yet, but Nat already has. So I think I'll ask others along, I don't know if Shing Yee watching Vampire Sucks is a good idea, she said she followed the Twilight movies and likes it. Jean's a twilight fan too I think. Basically, many girls I know seems to like Twilight. It's so god awful to me. =/ Glittering no fangs vampires and giant CGI dogs pretending to be werewolves. Hell no! I'll rather read my old comic which is super hard to understand, even though I'm the one who drew and written it.

Not sure what to expect from Kamen RIder OOO. So oh well. One of these days I really need to start back up on building gundam models. Holiday's drawing near, lots of MUET stuff to do. Lots of Maths, luckily not so much other stuff. Wonder can I get my hands on some Ultraman Mebius movies. Regardless of that, bah! There must be stuff to do on the holidays! Hang out with friends, trips(MAYBE), or whatever. Sitting at home for two weeks ain't gonna be fun. Should take this chance to practice too. Then there's my comic that needs some love.

The black and white canvas. Somehow, even though I myself have trouble painting mine, I sorta want to pick up another brush and paint on others canvas as well, regardless if they want it or not.

Anastasia is not a Disney movie!?

School's as usual today. Bleh. Boring. Matrices, god once Linear Programming mixed with Matrices, that's gonna be hard. I never learn that before. Still, gonna master it. What else is there? Hm, beside some fun facts I found out about someone I knew before. There's pretty much nothing to talk about.

Pretty nice movie actually, I still wonder why it doesn't air on Disney channel, I think I watched the movie on HBO last year when I first watched it. Anyways, guess I have to drop the singing with Phang and Alson Beh. Phang preferred to do a comedy act but I rather not. I mean, I wanted to sing. XD Ah, and we only have one month left, everything's unprepared and we don't even have the lyrics distributed(my fault on that one.) Anyhow, guess I'll just duet with Jean since she needs a male to duet with her but has found no one it seems, I doubt a low pitch voice can't duet with a high pitch girl's voice so yeah. :D Anyways, probably gonna duet with her At The Beginning. Let's hope I can improvise onjavascript:void(0) it for my lack of a high pitch voice. Better start practicing now and see which part I can't sing properly and find my own way of singing it. :D

Kamen Rider Double's ending is so close, Kamen Rider OOO's first episode's gonna be aired in Japan on the 5th of September. It'll definitely feel a bit weird not seeing two guys tranforming into a Kamen Rider to protect their beloved city. Oh well, life moves on, never stops. Cyclone effect~ Don't stop it~ got the whole Double OST 1 and 2, I love some of those tracks. :D

Seng Hoo reminded me of Guyferd, god lovely. LOVELY designs for the hero and the monsters, perfect choreography! Awesome 90's music! A pretty nice sci-fi story, god just what else can you ask for it? Oh yeah! A female character who's a kid who actually kick asses, I mean. You hardly see that in japanese live-action flicks. Especially not in Kamen Rider, sure you get a few good villianess once in a short while and they look hot and all, but they are just so useless sometimes. I'll be so happy to see a female protagonist that isn't useless.

Hm, I wonder can Nat let me carpool home anymore after the coco starts back up again. She seems to be letting a few others carpool nowadays so maybe I shouldn't bother her. Wish I had a car. =/ Hm.

EDIT - no wonder Anastasia doesn't air on Disney. O.o

Oh crap!

Said something stupid today. Class was in a mess. Hm, today felt so strange somehow. Something felt off. Window broken by the wind, decorations are gone, and everything else are messy. D:

Music boxes.

Though I'd said I'm moving on, I can't help but to wonder if the music box we once tried to built could had play a beautiful melody if we only we had held on regardless of the splinters.

I'm feeling a bit melodramatic today it seems. Sorta. I think. Hm, got an "important haircut" today. Gotta find time to camwhore tomorrow. After all, no pictures equals to lies when it comes to the internet. Hopefully I'll have enough time to finish up all the math questions Pn.Ratan gave us. Argh, I really don't feel like going to school on monday. But I want a damn full attendance certificate. Oh the damn dilemma. Nothing much happened today for me to blog about. Oh well. Laters.

Class Decoration

Had a bit of fun there. Lot of naming lol. And a lot making fun of people by drawing them into dresses and all that. Phang seems to had sacrificed a lot of petrol money. Guess he's the labour. o.o' Well, can't say our class was the best looking one, god and I said we'll beat A1. Damn. D:

Still sick

sneezing all day long at school. skipped today's audition for the 6th form night. Gonna write a better entry when I'm not sick. Till then, have fun.

sick

Bleh, after recess today I somehow started to feel sick. Guess it's from a lack of sleep. Got a runny nose and an uncomfortable feeling in my throat. I NEED WATAR111

Normal days.

Yeahh, nothing happened much really these two days. Of course I cant rant on and on about whatever I have in my mind about everything. But bleh. I'm not in the mood to go on a tantrum. Good day.

The Outing

Today, me, Phang, Shing Yee, Kitty Chin and Calvin Tan went out to watch a movie at Jusco. We finally decided to watch The Expendable. Oh god it was worth the 12 bucks. Hm, a little bit of an uneven screen time issue since we didn't really get to know the characters so well like in The A-Team. The action scenes however are definitely better than The A-Team, then again. Although both shows are about mercenaries, they sort of give off different vibes. So you can't really compare them very well. There were some badass fight scenes. But Shing Yee didn't dare to watch any part of those scenes. AHAHAHA. The show's pretty straightforward and has some vulgarity at the beginning but unless you're the type that get disturbed by even the slight mention of vulgarity, I don't think girls would have a problem with it. Worth checking out, I especially loved Jet Li portraying Ying Yang for a reason. God, one more week and I'm gonna go watch Vampires Suck, I wonder who can go out with me. =/

I'd actually ate quite a lot today. Almost non-stop. Bleh, I'm full now. You can see some photos from my Facebook albums of today's activities. :D Hm, what else did I wanted to talk about? I guess this is all? Oh well. Till next time.

Blood Donation

So I went for blood donation today. I'm surprised that there are so few and to be honest I thought some who would donate didn't. Ehh, appearances and prejudices perhaps. While some other didn't qualify. Fortunately I could. I couldn't manage to eat anything at all before it so I ended up getting dizzy a while after I got up and was eating. I'd already learned it the hard way last year when I had blood inspection and yet I let this happen. Bleh. Well, gonna draw a draft of my class decorated. Time to brainstorm. As for the school prom night. 5pm to 8pm is just not enough guys. ;_; The theme is "an evening of fame." I guess I'll wear a masquerade mask and get some tux set. Gonna audition on Wednesday with Phang and oh crap, we haven't even decided on a song yet. And we're 2 person short to sing anything done by Westlife.

Gonna go for a movie tomorrow with Phang and others. Let's see how things would go tomorrow.

How Many Times Have I Missed My Bus?!

Missed my bus again today. Geez, Uncle told me he'll come late today because MC's having exams till 1.45pm. So I stayed there and chat with Zidane Tan and Vivian till around 1.35p.m. and to my surprise, when I'd asked people about a mini bus with two little kids, one chinese guy and one tall indian dude, they tell me the bus had already left. But sometimes I do like missing my bus though, aha! I usually get something good out of it. Laughter assures whenever I get on Phang's car. The other time I missed my bus, I got a treat to Sushi King, and managed to play with Seng Hoo's Sony's Alpha DSLR camera a bit. Otherwise, when it comes to kokos, I usually carpool by Nat's car. She and Calvyn are always fun to have around. :D As for today. I got to meet Dyvia again! Damn man! I miss making fun of her and Kasturi back at my bus. Now that both of them AND Dinesh are gone it has gotten pretty boring with just me and Raymond. No sort of entertainment at all. Bah. It'd been so long that I'd sat in a big bus, I sorta realized that I was sitting a bit straight up like I would if I was on my mini bus. Sitting alone in a bus is freaking boring -___-. Ah the big space sure was comfortable. Considerable bus really. Too bad my grandparents doesn't agree to walking out and walking in from the lane.

Now I wish I have my own car. Oh gimme a Toyota SE, beautiful thing. And best of all? It's cheaper than new cars when you need to pay monthly to finish up your payments.

Red Alert Over!

Reporting casualties.

God I'm gonna fail all my papers. ;_; Anyways, sorta tired. I was never the type that would not get exhausted when it comes to exams. The inability to move around and talk exhausts me more easily than exercising. Beh.

Broken Strings

Ah, I still remember the days where my phone only had Japanese songs. Perhaps 1 out of 50 songs was in English. Now? Wow, I actually have a load of English songs and comparing that to Japanese songs? Suddenly they have dropped down in ratios.

I'd just watched a movie just now entitled The Thirteen Floor. I thought that it would be a ghost movie before I checked the info. Apparently, it was a bout a simulation created by people of an alternative world, and in reality. They were actually an simulation that built a simulation of a world. A bit complex eh? Was actually pretty interesting to watch. I was pretty much drawn in to the show for some reason.

Did badly for PA and Econs, guess I'll still have to get burned by Maths tomorrow. MUET not so much.

E.X.A.M.

Exam's tomorrow. It's gonna be ugly I tell ya. Changed my blog's link and name. Gonna need a new banner too. Urgh. After the exam dude.

I love the way you lie

Today's title is another awesome song by Eminem. =D An abusive boyfriend huh? Hmp. Anyways!

Today's group study went well. Kinda, okay. There were more chatting than Wee Mun and Ivan teaching, but still! We learned a bit!! XD I went and had two talks with Pn.Tan and unfortunately, she's not allowing any exceptions or any ways for me to go drop maths and take up Seni Visual. Oh well, guess we just gotta fight the fight. And now I'm considering to take up Seni Visual as my 5th subject. That's all for today I guess. Had lots of fun. =D

Lots of work today

My works are piled up. Just finished articles and finding meaning of words then construct sentences for MUET. Now I'm writing an opinion-based essay for MUET on scamming in general. Next up, PP exam, but I guess I'm gonna sacrifice that and draw a poster for the 1Malaysia competition. ARGGH! Next up, almost forgot about it is Economics, actually I almost forgot about drawing the poster too, thank god for a line in the newspaper. Well, cheerio.

Exams Are Coming! Brace Yourselves!

Mayday! Mayday!

Yeah, next week's the exam, and hell am I not ready or am I not ready? No coco today so I came back at around 1.30pm or so, just when I was starting to enjoy St.John meetings. Felt a bit weird, but I found ways to spent all those time anyways. I'd been napping these few days. Wonder am I reaching my limit? o.o Well, math's still hard to catch up, and I just realized that I forgot almost everything about Chapter 1 while trying to catch up on 2 and 3. DAMMN! PA? Still don't know what the f's going on, and my teacher knows that I'm the smart one that complained her to the moderator. MUET's smooth sailing as far as things goes. PP's hell to remember, but a bit easy since I had studied Perdagangan before. Then there's econs, which feels completely different from Basic Econs. ARGH! On another hand, P.S is great and easy and relaxing.

Outside of studies, well there's really not much time left to do anything or say.

I'm too sexy for the catwalk~

Sad people don't even know the band Blue anymore.

Hmp, recently I'd been minding my height. But hm, weird today I kinda started to think that height really doesn't matter all that much anymore. Yeah yeah, I know. I used to think that too. But well, I did went far as to go look for tips and exercises that can help my height, but just now, while I actually went browsing again for things about height after a quick chat online with RJ and this morning of comparing my height to Vivian's height(Which I still think she's shorter, mind you.) I kinda just felt like saying "screw it." Yeah, =D. Me, RJ Kevin and everyone else who's short, we're freaking awesome the way we are, and tall people? Alvin Lee and a few others? They're awesome the exact same way that we are awesome. So yeah, screw it.

Temple Anniversary and School

Step by step~ Heart to heart~ We all fall down~ Like toy soldiers~

We all go through shits, me, you and everyone else. That's life. Anyways, on Saturday night I went to a temple that my father always visit, and the owners of the temple being my god-grandparents. It was the temple's 31st anniversary. If anyone was there and I didn't see you, maybe fate doesn't like us. XD It was actually a pretty awesome night, I managed to sit with a talkative and funny middle aged man. And I was worried I'll be bored to death. Honestly though, the people there. Argh, some of them, I just feel that they really just came for the food and nothing else. They don't pay attention to the Lucky Draw even, left alone the speech by my god-grandma. Assholes and punks. Bah, and kids there, wow. Some of them, around the age of 4 I think already has a freaking phone of their own. WTF people? I know the world's advancing and all that, but c'mon, a kid that age with a phone? Oh where the hell is humanity going?~









Anyways, now that we are done with the ugly, let's talk about the fun thing about the anniversary. It was full of performances, which most I think sucked. The girls weren't energetic at all, they weren't really willing to be on stage maybe. Only one of them, the long haired girl in a red dress was good, she was really into it. The rest were like "I was forced into this, don't bitch to me about how my performance sucks and is not energetic at all." Another one just didn't move around much, but she was okkkaaay-ish, she sang "I Believe I Can Fly" the chinese song. You can see the photos and some of my comments on the photos on my Facebook. Food wise, the whole night was pretty cool and delicious. XD

Then the next day my dad had to leave for work again. I managed to get some awesome classic songs from him too. Mambo number 5, Dance With My Father Again and Runaway Train Soul Assylum just to name a few. Sunday was, well...quiet. Nothing much happened really. As for today? Just a normal school day. Though I'm considering switching school buses, Vivian's bus is an air-conditioned bus and her fees are RM60, the exact same amount I'm paying for my air-con-less small mini and campy bus.

Urrggh. Need to start pushing.

I'm definitely gonna fail my PP miserably on Monday. Looking at the notes, god dammit. Argh, I'm starting to get more and more fed up with someone and my impression of this particular person is starting to degenerate into pieces that are gonna be super hard to pick up. Beh. Oh well, at least today's not such a bad day...I mean, school on Saturday geez. But we did cancel the group study once again. Wonder when will we come about to doing group studies XD. And wow, it's suddenly pouring in rain. I heard from Yik Ken that my PA teacher knows that I'm the smartass who complained her, argh. Ah oh well(again), no point crying over spilled milk, at least today I found a new way to tease Vivian around with. LOL. And I'd managed to get 3 shots of funny faces made by her. Totally funny. I saw Nat at the entrance when me and Vivian were waiting after school, I was waiting for my grandparents and she was waiting for her friends to go Parade-ing. Hm, somehow I just don't know what to talk about with her anymore. o.o

Anyways, went to go take a look at the Toyota LE today that I mentioned on my previous blog entry. Seems nice, pretty clean and fixed. But only the external parts. Need to get my uncle to check it out to see if it's worth it at all.

OH MAN! SIC Kamen Rider Kuuga Gouram Version! SHIT, more of my money's gonna go down the drain.

Today's Story

Missed tuition today. But my brother's got an appendix and confirmed it yesterday night. So he was hospitalized today. Anyway, long story short had a fun time with Phang and guys today. Didn't realize it was Chee Kuan's birthday till it was too late. But we ended up buying a present for her. Credits to Phang for reminding us to get a present. XD. We had an ample amount of laughter in Phang's mini kancil. XD I just saw some awesome Toyota LE these few days. I WANT ONE! I'll take out my money from the bank, ask for sponsorship from my mom, dad and my uncle. =D