Well, nothing much. Futsal was cancel this week since other schools just finished their exams and we don't have enough people to play. My net speed still sucks, but the weather sure is nice! :D Saturday and Sunday were normal, and I managed to pump up 4 new pages of my comic "Knight's Requiem." Located at
www.aknightsrequiem.smackjeeves.com
Big achievement right there!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
GARO
For anyone who heard me talking about knights and stuff, well this is the title of that particular show.
First, let us start with the Graphics, designs and visual effects, it's simply amazing for a 2005 series. The designs are perfect. There's nothing I don't love, from the costume of the protagonists to the antagonists, the design of the monster suits are also perfect. Suuuure, call it a kid's show for it's a series about knights slaying demons that eat humans at night, but read on, skip the nudity, gigantic nude fanservices, matured themes, gory graphics, and violent fights. Weaponry looks real and metal-like, the armor the protagonists wears to slay demons from hell called Horrors looks realistic, like really made of metal, it was a very nice touch for them to actually make it look like they were wearing heavy suits of metal that restrain movements a bit. You can get the illusion of that the armors are really heavy.
Secondly the Acting, top notch beside a few here and there. I really like the facial expressions that the main cast of characters manages to do, they look genuine and very believable, big props to Kaoru too, her crying and laughing looked and sounded very real. Even the supporting character, Gonza the butler to Kouga(the main protagonist)had more than just a few lines. He actually was a pillar of the cast as well. I'm not sure of his age, but he pulls off the tone changing very well. Him acting goofy doesn't feel out of place in this very serious series, but when he's pissed, he manages to make people take him seriously instead of remembering him as the "goof-ball" of Garo. The antagonist also composed all the opening and ending songs, and sung every one of those songs too. Kinda shows how they are dedicated to this.
You can get very attached to the characters, the show actually spends time building up the characters and making you feel for them instead of just feeling like you're a third party dude watching the whole thing happen.
Pacing and the balance between the drama and the action levels of the series is also very well thought out. It has some really inspiration and innovative way of filming. Everything fits into place very well, and there aren't any plotholes. The story ties to the epilogue of the series very well, the epilogue is a movie called Garo Beast Of The White Night, and I haven't seen any movie that had such a perfect blend of action and drama in a long while. The fight choreography is also top notch, they don't abuse their armors, and there's a time limit to their usage of the armor as well, and this end up with majority of the fight scenes being the actors themselves(or stuntmen) doing it. I never really thought a story like this could work out so wonderfully. Definitely a very emotional, inspiring and good series and movie.
I could only wish I could write something like this or be one of the protagonist actors in a show like this. This show has just made it to the top of my list along with a few shows.
First, let us start with the Graphics, designs and visual effects, it's simply amazing for a 2005 series. The designs are perfect. There's nothing I don't love, from the costume of the protagonists to the antagonists, the design of the monster suits are also perfect. Suuuure, call it a kid's show for it's a series about knights slaying demons that eat humans at night, but read on, skip the nudity, gigantic nude fanservices, matured themes, gory graphics, and violent fights. Weaponry looks real and metal-like, the armor the protagonists wears to slay demons from hell called Horrors looks realistic, like really made of metal, it was a very nice touch for them to actually make it look like they were wearing heavy suits of metal that restrain movements a bit. You can get the illusion of that the armors are really heavy.
Secondly the Acting, top notch beside a few here and there. I really like the facial expressions that the main cast of characters manages to do, they look genuine and very believable, big props to Kaoru too, her crying and laughing looked and sounded very real. Even the supporting character, Gonza the butler to Kouga(the main protagonist)had more than just a few lines. He actually was a pillar of the cast as well. I'm not sure of his age, but he pulls off the tone changing very well. Him acting goofy doesn't feel out of place in this very serious series, but when he's pissed, he manages to make people take him seriously instead of remembering him as the "goof-ball" of Garo. The antagonist also composed all the opening and ending songs, and sung every one of those songs too. Kinda shows how they are dedicated to this.
You can get very attached to the characters, the show actually spends time building up the characters and making you feel for them instead of just feeling like you're a third party dude watching the whole thing happen.
Pacing and the balance between the drama and the action levels of the series is also very well thought out. It has some really inspiration and innovative way of filming. Everything fits into place very well, and there aren't any plotholes. The story ties to the epilogue of the series very well, the epilogue is a movie called Garo Beast Of The White Night, and I haven't seen any movie that had such a perfect blend of action and drama in a long while. The fight choreography is also top notch, they don't abuse their armors, and there's a time limit to their usage of the armor as well, and this end up with majority of the fight scenes being the actors themselves(or stuntmen) doing it. I never really thought a story like this could work out so wonderfully. Definitely a very emotional, inspiring and good series and movie.
I could only wish I could write something like this or be one of the protagonist actors in a show like this. This show has just made it to the top of my list along with a few shows.
Heeeyyy o
Nothing much to say. Maths result, 22/100, MUET, definitely not getting a B6, PA, failing on PS. Perhaps I should drop form 6 and quickly go and apply for colleges.
Oh, and I have added one new link to the Other Odysseys list.
Oh, and I have added one new link to the Other Odysseys list.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
And Thus
The chapter of Kyle's 2010 is gonna be closing soon. Hm, ah time sure passes by fast. I could use a dose of 2007 really. But all we can ever do is just look forward. 2010's gonna end soon, best rejoice in the moment instead. This year's life at SMI is really...something else than all the years I'd been here. Oh, speaking of which, apparently yesterday was the day that our sitting positions switched. Iceman and the others felt like sitting in front it seems. First day I'm absent to school this year and I don't even know if I'd missed anything? Na na na, I'm addicted to Oh My Goddess by Trax. Seo Joo Hyun in the music video looked stunning. :O I think I had really fallen in love this time!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Yan Lin's Birthday Party
It was a pretty fun day. I couldn't get a car so I was pretty late for the party. Most of the A3 people went beside the girls, excluding Shi Yun and Yan Lin, the birthday girl herself. First we went to K-box and pretty much sang from 2pm to 5.30pm. Note to self, never sing "Just The Way You Are" again in public, not even when I have a girl to sing it to. I sounded terrible singing it. My voice didn't really suit the tone of the song. At least that's how I heard it. D: Had some fun singing If I Had You, Airplanes, Make Me Wonder, This Love, and a hella lot of Westlife songs. Tried rapping Love The Way You Lie too. I'm officially loving karaoke!!
Speaking of Karaoke, K-box's timing and lyrics for some of the english songs aren't accurate. Especially on If I Had You, Pretty Woman and Airplane. Pretty Woman's timing wasn't very bad, but the lyrics weren't accurate. Bah. I do think that every was surprised that I know this song though. :D The last two songs we sung were Baby by Justin Beiber, which we mocked by singing in a very forced high tone and Secondhand Serenade's Fall For You. Oh yeah, we also sang I Don't Want To Miss A Thing by Aerosmith because the one who picked the song went out for the moment when it played. We failed miserably at the last part where the screaming starts.
After k-box, we went to M.P, but before that, everyone going to MP using Phang's car went to Secret Recipe and brought a cake for Yan Lin, the cake was called Indulgence. Then we ate for hours on at MP. Urgh...and then we had the cake...which was very big and...urgh. You can see how full we all were yesterday since I can't even talk about it without getting a bit sick.
Speaking of Karaoke, K-box's timing and lyrics for some of the english songs aren't accurate. Especially on If I Had You, Pretty Woman and Airplane. Pretty Woman's timing wasn't very bad, but the lyrics weren't accurate. Bah. I do think that every was surprised that I know this song though. :D The last two songs we sung were Baby by Justin Beiber, which we mocked by singing in a very forced high tone and Secondhand Serenade's Fall For You. Oh yeah, we also sang I Don't Want To Miss A Thing by Aerosmith because the one who picked the song went out for the moment when it played. We failed miserably at the last part where the screaming starts.
After k-box, we went to M.P, but before that, everyone going to MP using Phang's car went to Secret Recipe and brought a cake for Yan Lin, the cake was called Indulgence. Then we ate for hours on at MP. Urgh...and then we had the cake...which was very big and...urgh. You can see how full we all were yesterday since I can't even talk about it without getting a bit sick.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Futsal Again!!
I went to station 1 cafe this morning, god I love their menu...'s design!! The food isn't bad, but I actually focused more on looking at the design of the menu instead of the food. I was like "oh shit!!" when the waitress came to get our orders. Got some batteries for my camera for tomorrow. Karaoke and steamboat tomorrow. It's Yan Lin's birthday. Ah, and did you know? Karaoke is pronounced Car-A-O-K by japanese people and Care-re-o-ke by westerners. So they are both correct I guess. I do have to admit I like saying the latter more though. =/
Damn, couldn't get a goal this time. XD Had a fun night with the usual cast, Iceman, Phang, Calvin Tan, Sia, Daokei and many others, ah! And a new face today is Safar! :D We all had fun now didn't we? Anyways, after futsal, we went to gunung rapat for dinner. Phang went to Bercham's McDonald's lol. Owned!! Anyways, gotta run an errand for Miss Siti before Monday comes. Considering that I won't have time tomorrow, I better do it now.
Damn, couldn't get a goal this time. XD Had a fun night with the usual cast, Iceman, Phang, Calvin Tan, Sia, Daokei and many others, ah! And a new face today is Safar! :D We all had fun now didn't we? Anyways, after futsal, we went to gunung rapat for dinner. Phang went to Bercham's McDonald's lol. Owned!! Anyways, gotta run an errand for Miss Siti before Monday comes. Considering that I won't have time tomorrow, I better do it now.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Tis The Season
And the exam's are officially over! I screw up question 1. Even though I'd done it before. Bah. I guess I couldn't adjust to the time limit just yet. 1 hour and a half sure passes by fast. Need to start mastering critical thinking and have faster writing speed. This can't go on if I want myself a big Band 6.
Tis' the season of Halloween, of the things that goes bump in the depth of night. Time to bring out the scary ideas and stuff and apply them into paintings or drawings or whatever. It'll actually be awesome to dress up as a vampire to photoshoot to celebrate my comic's birthday. But then again, my comic's birthday is on the 25th of November. 20 days after a good friend of mine's birthday. :D
Tomorrow night's futsal, Sunday afternoon would be Karaoke and at night? MP! It's Yan Lin birthday too so yeah :D Speaking of more birthdays, it's Kitty's birthday today too. So many birthdays on October to November huh?
Tis' the season of Halloween, of the things that goes bump in the depth of night. Time to bring out the scary ideas and stuff and apply them into paintings or drawings or whatever. It'll actually be awesome to dress up as a vampire to photoshoot to celebrate my comic's birthday. But then again, my comic's birthday is on the 25th of November. 20 days after a good friend of mine's birthday. :D
Tomorrow night's futsal, Sunday afternoon would be Karaoke and at night? MP! It's Yan Lin birthday too so yeah :D Speaking of more birthdays, it's Kitty's birthday today too. So many birthdays on October to November huh?
Thursday, October 21, 2010
One More Day To Go!
Tomorrow's the last paper! PP wasn't so easy, Econs today, well it was surprisingly the easiest paper so far. I guess maybe it's cause me and a few others have basics while everyone else doesn't. I love C.S Lewis's quotes, stumbled upon one on Criminal Minds and googled his other quotes, besides the ones directly about god and Christianity? I nodded my head.
Getting very close to the end of GARO now. 25 episodes series, good acting, awesome soundtrack, support characters are well written and not wasted, good story, matured(not necessarily a point but for all those who refuses to watch shows about people who can transform into another form to fight great evil bla bla), nudity, awesome kickass battles, golden armors, very nice designs and choreography, but ehhh I doubt you guys will bother to know more about this. But it sure is one of my favorite shows now.
Now, to get more pictures of it. Hm. I'll either put my character or a Garo Knight into the class tshirt. I need to get it done and finished before Sia leaves.
Getting very close to the end of GARO now. 25 episodes series, good acting, awesome soundtrack, support characters are well written and not wasted, good story, matured(not necessarily a point but for all those who refuses to watch shows about people who can transform into another form to fight great evil bla bla), nudity, awesome kickass battles, golden armors, very nice designs and choreography, but ehhh I doubt you guys will bother to know more about this. But it sure is one of my favorite shows now.
Now, to get more pictures of it. Hm. I'll either put my character or a Garo Knight into the class tshirt. I need to get it done and finished before Sia leaves.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
3 out of 5 Battles Lost
Guessing by title and the fact that I'm having a one week exam, I guess you can understand what the title's supposed to mean huh? The exam's not going so great. I'm definitely flopping it. =/ Too far in now to switch subjects. I sure wished there was an option to pick Visual Arts and still stayed in SMI. That way at least I KNOW I won't be flopping Visual Arts. Bah. Oh well, life's a bitch and it always will be.
I'd been watching more Bones and Criminal Minds lately. Gotta say I sorta regret it, getting very into it right now. Today's episode kinda creep me out a bit. I like the psychology in the show, and those fitting quotes at the beginning and ending of the show. The cast's good and all, none of them is a douchebag. I thought Hotch would had been a douchebag but in the same episode, yeaahhh, changed my mind. Reid's interesting. The black guy? Nothing much, the blond girl? CUTIE PIE! HOT :D and with brains! Speaking of brains, there's Gracia if I remember her name correctly, she's well...I like her a lot in today's episode.
As for Bones? Well, I just like the cast and how they interact with each other I guess.
That's it about shows. Now about music!! So I was listening to MTV's Japanese and Korean hits. I saw this band called Trax singing this song called Oh! My Goddess(The reason why I stood around to watch it was because Ah! My Goddess is a title of an anime that I like, so I was like "Oh? This is a korean song right?) AND call me perasan but the lead singer in that music video with that hairstyle? That's almost the same as my hairstyle :D I'm so awesome!! Oh, and then I discovered what exactly is this "2NE1" thingy. I was actually entertained when I figured out I could read it as 'To Anyone.' As for their music, not my sorta music I guess. I switched to another program for the whole duration of their song right after it started. Think the name's Go Away or something.
I'd been watching more Bones and Criminal Minds lately. Gotta say I sorta regret it, getting very into it right now. Today's episode kinda creep me out a bit. I like the psychology in the show, and those fitting quotes at the beginning and ending of the show. The cast's good and all, none of them is a douchebag. I thought Hotch would had been a douchebag but in the same episode, yeaahhh, changed my mind. Reid's interesting. The black guy? Nothing much, the blond girl? CUTIE PIE! HOT :D and with brains! Speaking of brains, there's Gracia if I remember her name correctly, she's well...I like her a lot in today's episode.
As for Bones? Well, I just like the cast and how they interact with each other I guess.
That's it about shows. Now about music!! So I was listening to MTV's Japanese and Korean hits. I saw this band called Trax singing this song called Oh! My Goddess(The reason why I stood around to watch it was because Ah! My Goddess is a title of an anime that I like, so I was like "Oh? This is a korean song right?) AND call me perasan but the lead singer in that music video with that hairstyle? That's almost the same as my hairstyle :D I'm so awesome!! Oh, and then I discovered what exactly is this "2NE1" thingy. I was actually entertained when I figured out I could read it as 'To Anyone.' As for their music, not my sorta music I guess. I switched to another program for the whole duration of their song right after it started. Think the name's Go Away or something.
Monday, October 18, 2010
E.X.A.M 18th Oct
Excruciating. Xtra hard. Awwww. MOTHERF-
Anyways, the lower six finals started today! Oh hell. First battle and we're already losing the war. Tomorrow's the fight against PA and PS. Hopefully I can do well on the PS part, I honestly have no hope no the PA part. My bahasa's borderline crap. Literally crap. Yes, it can be that bad. I mean, I'd been failing BM since forever, except in UPSR, PMR and SPM. Super lucky. I must thank the teachers who marked my paper. Seriously, I need to. =)
How wonderful would it be if Economics and Business Studies was taught in english right? How wonderful would it be to have Visual Arts for Form 6 at SMI. God, I can already imagine me in an art class with people that shares the same passions and will be competing with me in the future to be a pro. But alas, NONE of that will ever become a reality. Unless I jump into a parallel universe, which too is not a possibility- oh who knows?
As soon as the exam's over. Party time baby! My blog needs a new look for news year. I'm not a Christmas person so I can use Christmas for some fruitful developments on either my comic, life or whatever that I can think of that day. Bleh. I hate Christmas. No, don't convince me to like it. Please, feel free to call me The Scrooge. Go ahead, but only on Christmas Eve and on Christmas itself alright?
I'm gonna go crazy on the holidays for sure! My Gundam model kits! My comic! Babies wait for me :D
Anyways, the lower six finals started today! Oh hell. First battle and we're already losing the war. Tomorrow's the fight against PA and PS. Hopefully I can do well on the PS part, I honestly have no hope no the PA part. My bahasa's borderline crap. Literally crap. Yes, it can be that bad. I mean, I'd been failing BM since forever, except in UPSR, PMR and SPM. Super lucky. I must thank the teachers who marked my paper. Seriously, I need to. =)
How wonderful would it be if Economics and Business Studies was taught in english right? How wonderful would it be to have Visual Arts for Form 6 at SMI. God, I can already imagine me in an art class with people that shares the same passions and will be competing with me in the future to be a pro. But alas, NONE of that will ever become a reality. Unless I jump into a parallel universe, which too is not a possibility- oh who knows?
As soon as the exam's over. Party time baby! My blog needs a new look for news year. I'm not a Christmas person so I can use Christmas for some fruitful developments on either my comic, life or whatever that I can think of that day. Bleh. I hate Christmas. No, don't convince me to like it. Please, feel free to call me The Scrooge. Go ahead, but only on Christmas Eve and on Christmas itself alright?
I'm gonna go crazy on the holidays for sure! My Gundam model kits! My comic! Babies wait for me :D
Friday, October 15, 2010
15th of October
Another normal school day has gone. Carpooled with Jeanette and Vivian since it's friday. NO! I don't want to wait till 2PM for my bus! D: So much time wasted. I could be, blogging, reading, writing, doing whatever I pleases with. Not to mention I have tuition at 6pm every Friday, so it's an hour or two more are a great help. Ate the blackforest jelly ice-cream today. I thought mine didn't really had much jelly in it until I ate the bottom part of it. ;D Anyways, I still want to try that chocolate corn where they have a KitKat in the middle of the ice cream. D: I haven't seen it around, or I guess it could be me not noticing it when I do go take a look.
I play to play badminton twice weekly or so this coming holidays. First off, I need people to actually join me, there's Jeanette and Jerry I guess? Next up is to find a court that's easily reachable and find a time that won't conflict with anyone's plans. Exam's coming in 2 days. Ohhhh shit. I haven't even study, and this is the FINALS we're talking about. I'm actually surprised to know a bit of the story of a girl from my class. Hahaha! Never knew she used to be like that. Oh, and Shing Yee, I'm still not buying whatever you said that she said about me. :D
I play to play badminton twice weekly or so this coming holidays. First off, I need people to actually join me, there's Jeanette and Jerry I guess? Next up is to find a court that's easily reachable and find a time that won't conflict with anyone's plans. Exam's coming in 2 days. Ohhhh shit. I haven't even study, and this is the FINALS we're talking about. I'm actually surprised to know a bit of the story of a girl from my class. Hahaha! Never knew she used to be like that. Oh, and Shing Yee, I'm still not buying whatever you said that she said about me. :D
Thursday, October 14, 2010
14th of October 2010
Nothing much today as well. My MSN list is still small ;) Maths' a total torture, I'll probably fail my finals. Urgh, no time for any sort of revisions or anything at all. It just feel so tight up.
Garo has been an amazing show so far, I'm loving all of it!
I found the song called Sweet Victory, it was played in an episode of Spongebob, god that was super awesome! In a way it sorta bring back memories too.
I wish I have the time to draw and stuff =/
Garo has been an amazing show so far, I'm loving all of it!
I found the song called Sweet Victory, it was played in an episode of Spongebob, god that was super awesome! In a way it sorta bring back memories too.
I wish I have the time to draw and stuff =/
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
13th of October
Countdown to exams. Pretty close, but I don't feel like studying at all. Damn. Seems like everyone's feeling like quitting form 6. Perhaps this is the feeling of fighting a losing war eh? Anyways, I think I'm starting to get back my feelings for drawing and stuff. I haven't really been feeling it. I wanna draw some realistic stand alone portraits actually. My comic, A Knight's Requiem's birthday's drawing near as well. I need some help to do a photo of me looking like a vampire to celebrate it's 1 year anniversary. =) Time passes by so damn fast huh? Recently, I'd started talking to Maria again, but I doubt anyone who reads this blog knows who she is. An oversea friend if you guys must know. =)
Well, gotta fight the fight now! Nothing much happened at school today, but I sure as hell like Differentiation more than Functions on Maths S. Which are Chapter 7 and Chapter 6. Function can go die for all I care. >:(
Well, gotta fight the fight now! Nothing much happened at school today, but I sure as hell like Differentiation more than Functions on Maths S. Which are Chapter 7 and Chapter 6. Function can go die for all I care. >:(
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
E-Diary
A blog to me, is pretty much an E-diary that you want people to read, be it specific people or the public. To share your day perhaps. Oh well. That's what I think. But that doesn't mean I'll update everyday, sometimes there are just days that aren't worth remembering or noting. Also, I'm finding less and less time to blog. Bah.
Lots of homework today. I had let them pile up...urgh. Back to homework. School had been pretty normal nowadays too. But I still wish cameras were allowed in school. Bah.
Lots of homework today. I had let them pile up...urgh. Back to homework. School had been pretty normal nowadays too. But I still wish cameras were allowed in school. Bah.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
First Goal! A nostalgic ride
After school today(yes, saturday, I know. :( ) went to Parade to hang out with Sam and others, initially the plan was to help Sam pick his formal wear for work. Since I haven't been hanging out with them for a while now. Only right to start hanging with em again. So I got to Parade after school thanks to a ride from Phang, lucky! Met Kitty there as well. She was wandering around trying to find where Novel Hut is on the Ipoh Parade part, instead of Parkson. XD
Phang Yee Lim, Iceman, Daokei, Sia Jun Bin, and a few other guys who I don't know the name of went over to extreme park today to play soccer. Sorry I was late guys. Won't happen next time hahahahaa! I hope. :D Hopefully I'll be able to remember the road. Won't be betting on it though. Anyways, along the way back, I took a different road than what I had in mind, the place where my ex lives. Ha! Anyways, scored my first goal! Feel so awesome now :D We should had all gone to go pick up girls instead of doing anything else. XD Ohh! Calvin had taken the most shots to the stomach today. Phang and Calvin were the keepers. I have a football-ball or basketball-ball phobia sorta thing, so I can't be a keeper. I almost hit Iceman with a few shots. Wasn't on purpose! I swear!! To sum it up, it was an awesome day and night. :D
I feel like doing some photos that has to do with vampires or look gothic. I'm into stuff like these it seems. Eh, comes from writing a vampire comic probably.
Phang Yee Lim, Iceman, Daokei, Sia Jun Bin, and a few other guys who I don't know the name of went over to extreme park today to play soccer. Sorry I was late guys. Won't happen next time hahahahaa! I hope. :D Hopefully I'll be able to remember the road. Won't be betting on it though. Anyways, along the way back, I took a different road than what I had in mind, the place where my ex lives. Ha! Anyways, scored my first goal! Feel so awesome now :D We should had all gone to go pick up girls instead of doing anything else. XD Ohh! Calvin had taken the most shots to the stomach today. Phang and Calvin were the keepers. I have a football-ball or basketball-ball phobia sorta thing, so I can't be a keeper. I almost hit Iceman with a few shots. Wasn't on purpose! I swear!! To sum it up, it was an awesome day and night. :D
I feel like doing some photos that has to do with vampires or look gothic. I'm into stuff like these it seems. Eh, comes from writing a vampire comic probably.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Picking a Pen Over a Briefcase
Someone today in class asked me "Would this feed you?" while I was drawing, coincidentally, episode 8 of Garo, which I also watched today was talking about "my reason for picking up a pen."
Well, to be perfectly honest and frank, no. Not really. It probably won't be able to fit me. The things that i draw, my skills, my passion. It measures to nothing in this business world, where money matters more than anything else. More than love, more than passion, dreams, ambitions, friendship, relationships and humanity apparently. Futile to deny that.
It may suck, our future may never be certain, we need to worry if we can land jobs or not when we graduate from studies, worry if our skills can carry us far or not, and if it can, how far can it go? We want to be famous don't we? We want to earn money, be successful both as an artist of any kind, be it to be a video director, advertisement, a painter, an actor, or even a dancer, and earn money as well. Yeah, it may very well suck. To be people like us who prefer to chase dreams, risk life, exchange a stable office job for an uncertain line of work where you might not succeed. But we're born like that unfortunately.
You know what? All that's fine, even if I can't feed myself, or my family. I can't deny my dreams and wishes. I want to be famous, I want the fame and wealth. I want to let the world know me. Yeah, being a celebrity. I'll like that. Do I even remember my reason for picking up a pen though? No. I don't. At least not anymore.
Do I love it? Yes, I assume I do. Ever since a child, I loved drawings, admired complex drawings, though I'm not so expressive myself. Shit happens, that's life. I'd once decided to stop dreaming. God was I freaking miserable. Nah, I don't want to live a life I do not want, I'm an idealist, born this way, fuck it! What am I doing here in Form 6? Seni Visuals. Anderson, St.Michael, FUCK! Perhaps I should had went to The One Academy or something instead, but oh well. I'll picked form 6, out of my own volition. I'm having a bit of a "what if" and "if only" moment here, but still. Damn. It'll be pretty hard for me to catch up in art universities when I do get there. Worse yet I'll have to apply for colleges next year. One year wasted. I want to be famous, known to the world and successful as fast as possible. I wish I have a great singing voice and connections to famous people. =/
Hell, our dreams are bullshit to some people. They don't see the value in it, it's but a waste of time and effort to them, it can be put to better use to produce something like a new project for the company or homework, hell.
But it's as if I can pretend I didn't pick up a pen rather than a briefcase anyways. So there you have it. Regardless of whether I can feed myself or not, if my future's certain or not. I'm risking it, I'll gamble on this path and the first step to take is by the end of this year, decide on what courses I plan to be doing. Animations? illustrations and comics? Acting? Dancing?(nah) Singing?(nah.) graphic designs? multimedia design? I need some inspiration. True I need to give my ALL in form 6. BUT! I cannot afford to disconnect myself from the industry of arts anymore! I feel so disconnected now! I don't know the latest trends, I don't even remember how to be creative anymore.
It's time for me to remember why did I pick up a pencil in the first place.
Well, to be perfectly honest and frank, no. Not really. It probably won't be able to fit me. The things that i draw, my skills, my passion. It measures to nothing in this business world, where money matters more than anything else. More than love, more than passion, dreams, ambitions, friendship, relationships and humanity apparently. Futile to deny that.
It may suck, our future may never be certain, we need to worry if we can land jobs or not when we graduate from studies, worry if our skills can carry us far or not, and if it can, how far can it go? We want to be famous don't we? We want to earn money, be successful both as an artist of any kind, be it to be a video director, advertisement, a painter, an actor, or even a dancer, and earn money as well. Yeah, it may very well suck. To be people like us who prefer to chase dreams, risk life, exchange a stable office job for an uncertain line of work where you might not succeed. But we're born like that unfortunately.
You know what? All that's fine, even if I can't feed myself, or my family. I can't deny my dreams and wishes. I want to be famous, I want the fame and wealth. I want to let the world know me. Yeah, being a celebrity. I'll like that. Do I even remember my reason for picking up a pen though? No. I don't. At least not anymore.
Do I love it? Yes, I assume I do. Ever since a child, I loved drawings, admired complex drawings, though I'm not so expressive myself. Shit happens, that's life. I'd once decided to stop dreaming. God was I freaking miserable. Nah, I don't want to live a life I do not want, I'm an idealist, born this way, fuck it! What am I doing here in Form 6? Seni Visuals. Anderson, St.Michael, FUCK! Perhaps I should had went to The One Academy or something instead, but oh well. I'll picked form 6, out of my own volition. I'm having a bit of a "what if" and "if only" moment here, but still. Damn. It'll be pretty hard for me to catch up in art universities when I do get there. Worse yet I'll have to apply for colleges next year. One year wasted. I want to be famous, known to the world and successful as fast as possible. I wish I have a great singing voice and connections to famous people. =/
Hell, our dreams are bullshit to some people. They don't see the value in it, it's but a waste of time and effort to them, it can be put to better use to produce something like a new project for the company or homework, hell.
But it's as if I can pretend I didn't pick up a pen rather than a briefcase anyways. So there you have it. Regardless of whether I can feed myself or not, if my future's certain or not. I'm risking it, I'll gamble on this path and the first step to take is by the end of this year, decide on what courses I plan to be doing. Animations? illustrations and comics? Acting? Dancing?(nah) Singing?(nah.) graphic designs? multimedia design? I need some inspiration. True I need to give my ALL in form 6. BUT! I cannot afford to disconnect myself from the industry of arts anymore! I feel so disconnected now! I don't know the latest trends, I don't even remember how to be creative anymore.
It's time for me to remember why did I pick up a pencil in the first place.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Butterflies
Oh c'mon guys, how is Butterfly Kisses not a sweet sweet awesome song? Along with Runaway Train, very nice!! I officially declare MUET time in my class a fun time to be in. :D Anyways, sooner or later I'm gonna burn around RM 240 to get SIC Volume 55, which is SIC Kamen Rider Stronger and Tackle. God they look awesome. MUST HAVE...EM!! Anyways, not touching homework today since my class and A1 aren't going to be at school tomorrow. SCORE!! Remember to be a good photographer, always bring spare battery and another camera, aka my phone. :D Hopefully there'll be time for us to pose around and take pictures. =)
Anyways, I haven't been blogging lately, not much time actually. I'd been focusing on my comic A LOT. Well, now it's time to push back to studies. No, literally into studies. Needa push if I don't want to see 22/22 on my report card where the class position will be shown. Sooner or later, I need to get my MG Char's Zaku to get a coating and make him feel very special. I'd neglected my model kits long enough!! The year end holiday, oh it's definitely gonna be busy! :D Not that I won't like it though, I hate not being able to socialize with people. One day without chatting with people and I'll just die. I'd also rediscovered some of the older songs of Eminem, I swear, they are awesome. Especially stuff like When I'm Gone. Not the newest songs. =)
Anyways, I haven't been blogging lately, not much time actually. I'd been focusing on my comic A LOT. Well, now it's time to push back to studies. No, literally into studies. Needa push if I don't want to see 22/22 on my report card where the class position will be shown. Sooner or later, I need to get my MG Char's Zaku to get a coating and make him feel very special. I'd neglected my model kits long enough!! The year end holiday, oh it's definitely gonna be busy! :D Not that I won't like it though, I hate not being able to socialize with people. One day without chatting with people and I'll just die. I'd also rediscovered some of the older songs of Eminem, I swear, they are awesome. Especially stuff like When I'm Gone. Not the newest songs. =)
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