27th of November

So, I ended decided to tag along ckl, Jeannette and Jenny to Parade and McD's today and boy am I glad. Know what happened? I found Bram Stoker's Dracula at Novel Hut, such awesome luck!! Just what I wanted, and it's only RM 9.00! The book is still in good conditions and it doesn't seem damaged at all. Guess someone just needed cash. Sad. Anyhow, I brought the book without a second of hesitation. I pretty much, literally reached out to the book at top speed without a care in the world. Saw the price, purchase. *drumroll*

Then we had some laughs at McD's place, the one in front of Super Kinta. And again, I ended up with ordering a Spicy Chicken McDeluxe large set after all the fuss. *facepalm* the 4 of us spent the rest of the time after eating for photo taking. I only realized I forgot to bring my camera after I was walking with everyone at parade. HAHAHA!

Our Barbecue Party

So 19th November 2010, first day I drank beer. Even Sze Ling and Wee Chie Kuan joined the party. It was hella fun. Lots of laughs, and heh, a lot of tears as well.

Believe it or not, but this is the first time when I'd felt touched and so painful that a friend would be leaving. I'd always felt indifferent or was the blacksheep every where I go. Form 1 to Form 3, wish I cherished it better. Form 4 to 5, wasn't very good either.

Perhaps that's why I'd built up a wall between myself and people, I don't try to get emotionally connected, and I find it quite hard especially with my Form 4 to 5 mates. Wish it went differently. But it didn't. Form 6 is...perhaps my best chance of having a good school life. I'd grown too overly prideful, apathetic and egotistic over the course of the years.

I often feel indifferent to people. Never really had a sense of belonging. Do you know the game where one guy closes his eyes, and the person behind him will catch him and save him from falling to the ground, the trust game? I didn't really had anyone who I believed I would be able to play it with. I always seem emotionless, cruel or cold to people and friends. It's pretty much just a facade I put up. Most of the time, it'd became more than just a facade and I can't really blame anyone for it to be happening.

This year...is quite different. Everyone aren't stingy about money when it comes to gatherings and birthday presents, nobody's racist, and even when there's time we hate each other. We could still band together and chat and have fun. Unlike my previous years. But I guess perhaps that's one of the reasons why I just don't bond well with them?

I can't really think of friends that would make me cry if they leave, but I quite understand when Him said "We'd been classmate since we were in Form 1." Truthfully, I never was able to forge bonds this strong with anyone...watching Iceman and the others crying made me felt like crying as well. It'd only been a while since I'd known em, but damn, the thoughts of Sia leaving is a pretty sharp needle.

Kinda unfair that I joined in the talk when every were drunk besides me. Promise that I'll try and get drunk and have a little talk with everyone too if we get another chance to do it. :)

And Sia, the class's gonna be a lot more quiet with you gone. We're all gonna miss you man. Perhaps we're being very emotional about this, but oh well. Who cares? At least we have the heart to be so, I believe.

HAHAHA, this is the very first time I'm writing an emotional non-private blog entry.

Pasar Malam

Ah how nostalgic

It had been ages literally that I'd been to a Pasar Malam. Today was the first time I went to a pasar malam again. Albeit that they have a lack of products that I fancy to sell and all...then again, it was still fun window shopping. How nostalgic indeed, the kids leaning over the table to look at the toys, having a dilemma on whether which flavor of candy to pick and which type of candy. Sure reminds me of me back in those days. Once I see a toy store I'll be stuck there like glue. Pasar Malams are, still the same as I'd remembered, well...whatever that reminds of my memory of pasar malams anyways. Many people, lights every where, noisy, food, rain, stalls and many other things. Definitely don't remember couples dating in pasar malams though.

K-box!

K-box! K-box! Oh man, I'm addicted now D: Probably gonna be visiting karaokes more often from now on. But it's nothing I can't live without anyways. It's always fun to sing songs with friends. :D

Pretty short time compared to last time though, but this time we only had 4 of us instead of 12 or more. But I guess it's best this way? You don't snatch for the remote control all the time, easier time to pick songs too. Anyways, not much else after that cept that we waited at Jeannette's house and we ended up playing UNO. I tried playing with all my cards open again, sadly I did not win. I still remember the crazy times me and my classmates had back in form 5 with Uno cards. Pretty damn crazy, pretty damn crazy indeed.

Shoot Em All Deead!!

I carpooled a friend's car home today, unexpectedly it turned out to be pretty fun. AHAHAHA! It'd been a long while ever since I used an imaginary gun to shoot at imaginary zombies or monster or people before, with other people playing with me. As childish as it is, it's fun and it's always fun to go back to enjoying things like this, let your inner child have it's fun once in a while. Won't do any harm. :D

Got my report card today, awful results, first time being the second last person in the class. I'd never been this far from the middle before. I want to murder someone or suicide.

Photography Duty Today

I was on duty today due to Yin Hang not being available because of Mr.Dictator Douchebag. Had some fun, but most of all it is tiresome. Oh well, like the song "Remember The Name" by Fort Minor said; 5% pleasure, 50% pain, and a 100% to remember the name.

I think my engines are already off and cold ever since Chapter 7 of maths started after we were done with Chapter 6. Chapter 7 is titled Differentiation, somehow it's so hard to absorb in. == It's nothing like mod maths of Maths S's Chapter 4: Matrices, where I can just remember it without doing much practice. I'm hating this disability to absorb maths. Bleh. Oh well. There's seni.

A bloody B4

Just one mark away from B5...what a bloody disappointment. Worse off, I lost to someone who I never expected to win against me. I mean I won't mind it as much if it was Lai Lin or Calvin Tan who won against me(I would mind, just not as much. I'm competitive that way.), who got a band higher than me or on the same band with higher marks than me. BUT FUCK! I didn't expect someone else instead to win. Fucking disappointed, I'll never get over this. Motherfucking hell, I can't accept it. I'm a perfectionist and a very competitive dude, this is bothering me like crazy. English and Mod Maths had always been part of my territory. Now someone who I didn't believe will step on me stepped on me. God damn, damn it all to hell.

Anyhow still, Mr.Ibrahim's willing to help me out with seni. So now I don't need to worry too much about failing maths. I still want to pass it mind you.

Got a Way Got a Way?

So I found I can use Visual Arts to cover for maths, now the big problem is finding a teacher willing to help guide me and do all the work and shit. Nobody knows anyone from Anderson who takes this subject either. I'll be surprised if someone helped me find people to contact with for this subject. Like 1/100 chance? Damn, suddenly it seems like a good idea to opt to transfer to Anderson. Won't really make a difference for me to be here or there anyways. Anyhow, need to dig out information, next is to somehow convince Mr.Ibrahim to help out...oh that's probably gonna be hard.

Oh well. Life never wasn't a bitch anyways.

SMI and ST Friendly

Followed Iceman today to Samtet to be the photographer for the friendly basketball match between Sam Tet and St.Michaels. St.Michael loses by 10 marks at the first 3 round, but on the last 3 minutes of the last round, it was hella awesome! Go take a look at the video on my facebook when it's uploaded and you'll see why. :D

As for school itself today, let's just say I manage to talk to Mr.Ravi and get some valuable information. Oh yeah, it's also my very first time stepping foot in Sam Tet, god it looks big from the inside!! Didn't really had much a tour though since I only stayed at the basketball court, but it's pretty nice. I forgot to bring a t-shirt today and am I glad daokei was there today as well. Otherwise I'll be the only one wearing school uniform at that hour- Oh, Toon came later wearing his school uniform, makes three of us then.

Sam Tet 6th Form girls are...well, there are more Sam Tet girls that satisfies my taste than SMI girls. Short hair girls!! :D

Got bitched at by somebody at school today too, only a peddle on my road. Gonna get some demerit but oh well, who cares. Anyways, he sure suck at reading people's facial expressions. I swear I will assume anyone who reacted the way I did(looking to the side while thinking on a respond.) to be thinking. Oh but nope, he thought "Don't you show this sickening look again next time, if it's other teachers they would had already slapped you."

I was like "what the fuck? I was just thinking." Hell, I even bit my lips at one point while trying to think up a respond for his reactions. Speaking of which, he never blinks. I should had played the staring contest with him instead of thinking.

Bleh. I got my badge taken and demerit forms to be given to me, and Calvin's on suspension. To wear a tie in a non air-conditioned area in Malaysia even in the morning is hot, freaking hot. Cut people some slack to not wear the tie jeez, not even Pn.Tan minds it, and what? She's the head of the 6th Form department. For anyone's information, I'd went to see Pn.Tan or went into the 6th form office more than 5 times without my tie and badge. I hate wearing badges by the way, the needle tears my shirt and leave holds behind, while the clip makes the badge drops down. Doesn't look decent at all. The color being the ugly yellow doesn't help one bit. Sure, full attire can mean discipline, but then again, a tie and an ugly badge doesn't really help. Blame whoever's responsible for not producing the sweet looking metal monitor badge anymore cause I sure as hell would wear that badge. In theory, the idea of a badge that shows which class you're the monitor of is fancy, but in execution? Please keep that ugly yellow out of my sight. Seriously, black would had been a nice contrast to our uniform.

Now that I'm done ranting about an useless pebble, time to slip past it and enjoy life. Only 365 days in a year, gotta live like we're dying :D

Joy In Comiking

Oh I just love it when I get compliment in real life about my comic when a person really read it.:D But more often then not people only give me vague, general description and compliments. Haven't come across anyone who can actually comment and give constructive criticism on it. The others who read comics or draw in form 6? Eh, don't know em well so all I get are gonna be general responds like "Not bad," "Hey, you drew this yourself? Not bad, o.o" and that's pretty much it and I never get responds from some others.

Been listening to Elvis's songs again, K-box sucks for having just 3 Elvis Presley songs. Bah. Net speed still not improving, damn streamyx, assholes. Now, maths I can't with all the e^x and ln and logs and crap. It's just so much harder to absorb than mod maths it seems. Bleh, Gonna ask the others how to do it tomorrow. Gonna draw a picture for a friend for now.