So this is a little story a "childhood" friend of mine written. It's a story about this "childhood" friend of mine I guess, we'd been close friends since we were born XD. So I guess it's natural this friend of mine is trying to reach out to the world through me. That's probably why this "childhood" friend of mine wrote this.
I studied in St.Michael, I used to be a shut-in but only in Form 3 did I realize that I was a complete stuck-up spoiled brat. Two years have I wasted where I could have embraced better memories with my friends if I wasn't hiding in a shell, but alas time never turn back for anyone but the Prince Of Persia. We're the best of friends indeed, the only thing that's left of our friendship is but pieces and calling it the good old days. We had never gotten back together ever since Form 3. But I cherished those times anyways, it was fun with them, and I could open up to one of the members of the group since so to speak, I idolize him now. Who I want to become sometimes so desperately I forgot who I myself was until about a year ago. But it was never successful in all it's glory since I'd always hid myself behind a superiority complex in form 4 to 5. Never letting anyone reach out to me. I only reach out to others when I can't handle the loneliness anymore, specifically a friend who I got on the wrong foot with in form 3 and also the man who I admire to become like in one way or another.
Somehow I just started to become better friends with the first guy through music. Even to this day I still share my problems with him, he's majoring in...let's just say specializing in reading into the mind of humans and understanding how it works. I am trying to be a more open book now though, it's why I'm writing up this and requesting Kyle to post it up on his blog. But it's not like the wind's helping me out though, it just tries to blow me away most of the time when I am in reach of the top.
My parents are divorced due to misunderstandings and my mom and grandfather are basically enemies to their deaths, my grandfather's a complete paranoia jackass due to his kidney failure and I'm labeled as "the useless grandson" on his list. Really, I think being an omnipotence being is the only way to completely pleases them. It's why I can easily relate myself to K.
I'm now studying in form 6, it sure wasn't my first choice though, I'd be happy to go to The One college I would had gone to if I had the money. But, I can't say that I am not happy with my life in Form 6 either, even though I have to struggle with a subject that I have no basics in, I'd managed to see other sides of people, of myself, and also manage to forge new friendships that I thought were never possible to begin with, with new people I'd never met before or with people who I never had gotten to see their other sides. Perhaps you could say that I'm trying my best now to crawl out of the damn cave that I was stuck in, and through that process, hopefully, some who I had interacted with in the process of climbing are gonna start climbing like me too, regardless of how different their problems are.
Some of them really opened my eyes, some pisses me off, one really pisses me, some are making me push myself to be more leader-like. Some got me to decide something I'd been hesitating to make a decision about, a certain few gave me new meanings to old words such as "friendship" and they also gave me a new perspective on life. To those certain few, I thank you people for being part of my life even if it doesn't mean much to you. Had I felt so comfortable calling people as my bros and sis when we aren't related by blood? Had I really felt that people really meant those words when they say "You guys like my brothers you know?" No, not really. At least not until now.
And that's the end of it, I'm guessing I'm one of the "certain few?" since he asked me to post this?? I'm not being perasaan lol. =D Anyways, I cannot release my friend's name because he doesn't really have one. I don't interact with this friend of mine in school at all and neither do I ever talk about him, so you can't figure it out from me either. But do my childhood friend a favor, if you have guesses and or think you got the right answer, send me a private message on Facebook or text my cell. He doesn't want his name to show up in regards to personal stories of his, baby steps to being more open I guess? Ahaha.
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