2.0.1.0.

What I write in this post might be offensive to some people. This post will mostly be charged with negativity. Be warned. I could instead write this in my private blog. But nobody but my closest friend has access to that. Perhaps I'll privatize this blog after today.

The start of this year, I worked for 3 months, wasn't too happy with it honestly. But, oh well. The Me then doesn't seem much like the Me now. So just gonna let that all sink.

Then I went back to school for form 6. Hyped about it. "A new start! Hey! Maybe I can mix with the science streamers! Oh and there will be girls!" Boy, was I wrong about that! I'd certainly got myself a few haters more than good friends here. Hmmm, I wonder would 'a few' be an understatement? What happened on the first day of school? Well, a dictator who won my Mr.Douchebag of Malaysia 2010 told me my hair was too long and either cut it right now, go back home and come back tomorrow. Screw him, it's written in those official papers that if you don't apply today, you can be treated as forfeiting form 6. Not gonna let him screw me over, and with that, I started form 6 with ugly hair(not short, ugly. I don't mind short hair if I don't look ugly like hell with it).

Met some bitches, met some bastards, some jerks and idiots along the way. As for anyone who would argue that there are nice people around, well sure. I do think that there are some nice people around perhaps, I don't know everyone in the same form personally, some I briefly do. But hey, I never could mix well with science streamers, considering that there are only a few pure art streamers that came to form 6? Yeah, gonna have a great time with everyone I can't mix with! SMI's science stream and art stream are way different from other school's relationships from what I'd heard. For starters, MC doesn't seem to have any hate between each streams.

SMI art streamers says;
"Fucking science streamers with their lansi attitudes, god fuck them people."

SMI science streamers says;
"Bleh, punks with no future in life. The whole art stream will just die one day in a gang war, that won't be surprising."

I don't heard anything about Sam Tet hating each other because of the streams either. Some of my new Sam Tet friends seem to be getting along fine with everyone, from science or art. It made me chuckle and I think I really did smirk, when a classmate of mine said; "We used to think the art stream is for losers, but now in lowersix? God, we're now art streamers and there's really no difference! We used to say going to the art stream is a grade down too!"

A while after form 6 started, I started hanging out with a few science streamers, and I thought "Wow...not all science streamers are cocky bastard!" but of course, then some drama happened, I started to get infatuated with this one girl, and now we're mortal enemies, won't have it any other way, but after the drama subsided, me and the other science streamers are now quite distant. So much for getting along and being friends, seeing another side of people bla bla bla. Really, I really thought that for once I might have some friends who are not neglecting understanding others.

What I did? Well, move on with life! I never seem to stick around those pure science streamers, never could, even when we have nothing against each other now. I started to get to know my classmates more after the whole drama above blew over. Come to think of it, me and my closest friend talk a lot more often(I think) after the shits that happened. Life goes on. I'll be frank, my very first impression of the class was bad, but then I got to know them a bit more, and my opinion is changed. Perhaps I was a bit too naive there, now I'm having another change of opinion. One of the reasons why I'm not looking forward to next year you could say. No matter what you do, a black colored piece can never blend in with the white pieces on a chessboard I guess. I'm just another jigsaw puzzle piece that doesn't seem to fit anywhere. At the end of lowersix, I pretty much lost all the fire needed to study.

I'd been talking to one of my classmate a bit lately. Heh, she and me are like oil and water. We can talk for a bit, but our ideas of life, our opinion on everything are way diverse. We recently even had a conversation on god, traditions and religion. I bet most of you people would call that as arguing, but I honestly see that as just a serious turn for a discussion and it's all healthy to a conversation such as this. Yet, every single time, everyone calls it an argument when I talk in serious ways. I'm sick and tired of this. I like to see it as debate or a serious discussion on particular topics, others see it as an argument and me trying to provoke others. Don't even try to reason with me saying the ways I say things are harsh, offensive or direct. I tried my best at being polite, making sure that my feedback on a Gundam model kit on a gundam forum cannot be taken as offensive. Guess what I got after I started talking about my points? A moderator says "Oh, I had been keeping an eye on Kyle for a long while already." Guess I just can't get along with typical Malaysians.

I don't share the same lifestyle as many others, my issues are not a booming inbox on christmas eve, not parents who won't allow sleepovers at friend's houses, definitely not money, not strict parents, and it's definitely not a girl I just knew for a few months and claim to be 'madly in love with.' Heh, listing it like this, makes my problems in life seem much more than majority of the people I know. Oh god, I'm making myself sound like the most pitiful poorest man in the world. But nay, I'm not, people at Haiti or recent tsunami and earthquake casualties are suffering probably a thousandfold more than me or anyone here reading this blog. I'm just saying that most of the people in front of me "seems"(note the emphasize) to have a better life and yet not appreciate it sometimes. Could really get on my nerves when people say they had an argument with their parents because of super silly things e.g. their parents not allowing them to buy a new phone or go hang out with friends on one particular day because of other events.

I used to have such a big superiority complex, I kinda feel it coming back right now. Perhaps it's my defense against people, and to use it to fill the voids that I feel in my heart. I bet I seem like quite an apathetic person to many? I have my softer side too, but it never seems that I feel comfortable showing it to every one of my friends.

Yet still, I won't let things like this get me down, I gotta "Rawr Rawr fight the powah" as one of my favorite rap song from an anime says. I shouldn't care about those who doesn't care about me. And it's definitely not worth it to change myself to please every single person I know. I don't have the support of many, just means that I gotta work a bit more harder. I can't blend in well, that has to mean that I'm special!! I'd made more than enough mistakes over the course of my 18 years life. I wish not to make any more fatal ones. But what's life when you're not living happily?

So to the world I say "Fuck you, and a Happy New Year." Let bid this miserable year farewell and stop looking backwards, a toast to the next year, the war is coming, STPM. I will look forward to the next year with my hope raised for life without hope seems so meaningless to live in, doesn't it?

REVIEW: Bram Stoker's Dracula

First of all, please take note that I'm not a frequent reader. I only have read two novels, in my whole life. Excluding the ones from school which I was forced to read. Add that up and I guess you could say that I'd only read 5 or 6 books. So naturally, my standard won't be that high and in the end, all of these are of my opinion! Oh, and the third book from Eragon? Bysingr? Totally suck balls.

Anyways! Onto the review!

I find the setting and atmosphere of the book very well expressed. I can instantly imagine the scenario in my head as I read. As in the whole picture. If I was given a brush or a pencil, I think I can actually sketch it out. At first I thought I won't be able to get used to the diary format Bram Stoker used on Dracula, but it blended quite well into the story. The way it's written doesn't make you go "Damn, why the hell did he decided to write in this format?!"

I don't think the writing's anything less, but I'm not that good a judge when it comes to books. Comics, tv shows and movies yes, but not books. The book had much dialogs and little fighting scenes.

I don't which version of the book do I have, but it's written completed and unabridged, and it's published by Classic Library with a dark shade of crimson for a cover. Pictures of the book I'd seen were always orange-ish yellow. But my book's still in a good condition. The quality of the paper is nice, I accidentally got a drop of water on the book while reading and it didn't stain the book! There are some marks on the book though, and some of the words are washed out. But that's due to age perhaps?

There's no problems in remembering which character is which, but between all 4 of the protagonists I don't really see much of a difference between them. But I guess they were distinctive enough.

Overall, I don't think it's anything bad and was enjoyable. It keeps you on the edge and wanting to read more. I definitely would recommend this book!

Sums Up Today

My HG Gouf Custom is complete and ready for battle damage and the likes to be done.

Having a runny nose since yesterday. Now it's all chocked up, meaning it's quite hard to breathe. At least I'm not down with a fever I guess.

2011 is coming, very very very soon. And hell, most of my homework's not done, and I'd not studied at all. Blame me all you want, but geez, ever since the last two weeks of lowersix I didn't felt like touching a pen unless it's for drawing. It's not just simple "Holiday fever" either. Bleh.

Didn't take a bath the whole day, I did brush my teeth and wash my face though.

And that's about it, I think. Nothing else to say; ah, I forgot, I wanted to write a review on Bram Stoker's Dracula. Oh well...not with difficulties in breathing.

Christmas Day

Okay, so it was two days ago. But I didn't had the mood to write a blog entry. Bleh. First, I went out to eat with my grandparents, and after that enjoyed some fun time with a few of my friends, the usual gang that I hang out with. Including my classmate from Form 5. Sam. While the girls were window shopping for clothes, begs and so, me and Sam were talking about guns, like how to operate a sniper rifle. Mechanism of a M16 and a handgun. Since he's now enrolled for NS. He's in polytechnics and for some odd reason all those who didn't get selected for NS will need to have NS at the polytechnics compounds. HAHAHAHA! That aside, heard that he's accurate with the handgun, oh who knows? :D Oh and we ended up playing bowling anyways. Too bad it was just me and Sam, the 2 girls were wearing skirts. I lost by 5 points. Darn. Had to screw up at the last shots.

Anyways, now that all the highlights are listed and spoken of, (unless I had missed any.) It was Christmas! So naturally, slash impulsively I went to buy myself two Christmas presents;



And to whom you might ask? The special and lucky person, yes! The ONE person who's receiving TWO christmas gifts from me?




Well!! Obviously it's ME! Trolling and being obnoxious aside. Gotta say, that was the first Christmas where I didn't spend my time at home. As for the two days that follows. Well, boredom and so. Homework's need to be done and I think I have quite a lot of photos I didn't upload, but oh well. As if that's a bad thing. My wallet is suddenly a lot lighter. Oh, and note to self; don't forget the money that I owed Vivian.

Yet Another Day

So, I didn't really had in mine that today was Christmas Eve, even when I wrote 24/12. Neither did it cross my mind that 25 is Christmas when I look at the numbers. Sums up what I think of Christmas and so. Anyways!!


I went to Kellie's Castle today along with Jeanette and Vivian to check the place out just to prepare for the vampire photoshot. One note, the place's hot as hell.
-Fun place to visit
-didn't see any ghosts
-the stairs were super small
-some spots were more than suitable for the photoshot.
-perfect place to do it.
-a pity that the place couldn't be completed. Things like these are what we call "Shit happens." I guess.

Anyways, after hopping around the place we went over to Jaya Jusco and pretty much spent the whole day there. Never did I kept in mind that today was Christmas Eve too.

Tomorrow! Oh Christmas!! I shall look forward to! Buying myself two Gundam models! Counting it as a christmas present to me! Me baby! Kyle <3 Himself, oh, and some screaming from parents. But of course, one more that I cannot leave out is gonna have some fun with buddies at Parade tomorrow.

Jingles Jingles

As usual, a blog entry on how I spent the day! And also! Some other random stuffs!!

On Christmas Eve~
I chose to spend the count down to Christmas!!
All alone!
Some dumbass said;
Nobody's gonna be alone on Christmas~
(or was it something like nobody's gonna be singing alone on christmas? Whatever)
But it's more~~~
Nobody's alone in being alone for Christmas~
But anyways~ Let's all be gay~
(Or we can just go fap to some blues, why the hell do they call it blues anyways?)
And sinnnng a song~
and a toast to a new year~

oh yeah, this was supposed to be about my day. Nevermind!

Anyone who's wondering; I wrote this with If You Were Gay in my head. HO HO HO HO!

Oh bloody hell.

I posted a feedback on what I think of a highly popular model built on a gundam model kit forum. God forbid em from taking offense or asking me to make something better looking "since you seem to have such a good idea on what looks good." But oh well. Could always say fuck em and just be satisfied by looking at pictures, tutorials and playing with my models instead of socializing with people.

Kyle's Life Story Thus Far!

I haven't been updating much. But oh well, nothing much to write about beside hanging out with my buddies, and occasionally chatting with em on the internet. The holiday's end is fast approaching and I have yet to even touch a book. God I'm screwed. Really screwed. Better start working on my homework either today or tomorrow. Note to self; if tomorrow, better not stop working on my homework after picking the pen up, until your hands drop dead.

I'm thinking of leaving my private blog to die, there's really not that much of a purpose to keep two, but then again. Oh well.

For those who follows my blog(if any o.o), you might remember that I stated that I found Bram Stoker's Dracula at Novel Hut last month or something. Well, I'd read through half the book and I gotta say I like it quite a lot. I'd also been reading about vampire sightings in real life, the Highgates Vampire Sightings and supernatural events that occurred there seems pretty scary and interesting. Go give it a read if you're hunting for some horror story or vampire sightings.

I saw a commercial yesterday and here's how I responded to it;

Commercial: Winners don't do drugs!!
Me: But Elvis did do drugs.

Well, I wasn't taking it seriously and it wasn't one of the emotionally touching commercials, so I didn't resist cracking jokes at it. Heck I don't remember what the commercial was about.

I'm trying to make my comic feel less like a 'manga-influenced' comic and more into a plain old comic. But, since I'd been using only black and white and once school starts again I won't have time to even think of going full colors. I went with a little blend of color and black and white and oh, threw some screentones into it too. Getting some positive responds to it. Can't say I'm not happy :D But, I'm still not so satisfied, I myself still feel that it's quite manga-like.

Gotta bring my little brother out to buy books, after my lunch. Not sure what to do since it has been 5 years since I was in Form 2. I remember that not every subject teacher will use all the books listed in the "list of books to buy" though. However, as stated, 5 years has passed since then so I'm not sure how the system is for my brother's. Bleh, gotta waste money again? =/ Already wasted enough during my time. This is exactly the reason why I hate buying books early. Much rather be late.

Heard some stories about some of my friends, quite surprised. Never knew they would do those things when I used to talk to them before. But oh well. People. What can you do?

Christmas is coming. Bleh, boring holiday. I hate Christmas, but I like snow, I wish to have a snowball war against my friends, I wanna try making an angel on the snow and I would love to try making a snowman. Oh well, call me The Scourge, I don't care. :)

There's a DCD version Kuuga being released with Gouram. I REALLY need that, as a big Kamen Rider Kuuga fan. Not to mention Gouram can function along and Kuuga's body frame isn't effected at all by the Gouram feature. I'm sold! Then there's SIC Kamen Rider W Cyclone Joker that comes with Cyclone Joker Extreme parts. My god, Bandai is killing me and my wallet. I also ordered a MG Gundam Quanta O, this little baby made me lose the chance to ride a train to and back from Kuala Lumpur with my classmates. If I don't build a marvelous piece of model out of this kit. I will never live it down. Oh, and I love it's box art design. One could say it's one of the reasons why I decided that I want this model kit a lot and pre-ordered it without much consideration, that and I saw a discount offer on the model kit. :D RM 165 baby! Man, if I ever get a girlfriend, please let her be rich lest she won't have much choices for casual presents that can make me happy, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Joking aside, my wallet's gonna be burned. Damn you Bandai, damn you.

A year end post? I'll do that on the 31st of December instead. Since I'll probably update later on again anyways. No point doing it now. Maybe I should actually write one on January instead. I can't speak for anyone else, but I'm sure some of us dare say that we had changed quite a bit from last year. I still don't really believe that I'm wearing white pants as part of my school uniforms. Ah, life.

I don't wanna be a tiger, cause tigers play too rough~
I don't wanan be a lion, cause lions ain't the kind you love enouuugh~
Just wanna be, your teddy bear
Put a chain around my neck,
and lead me anywhere,
Oh let me be, your teddy bear~

I wonder how many of you guys know this song?

Aww man, I'm so in the mood to sing along to songs by Westlife and Elvis Presley. Throw in some titles like Better Man by Robbie Williams and Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert.

Perhaps a slice of Find Yourself by Brad Paisley and It's My Life by Bon Jovi.

Tiny bit of Marchin On by One Republic, a pinch of Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan and also When You're Evil and God Thinks by Voltaire.

A noticeable amount of Graduation (Friends Forever) by Vitamin C and The Way We Were by Barbra Sreisand.

Ah, Billionaire by Travis and Airplane by B.O.B and Hayley Williams in between all of that!

And there you have it, quite a good list of songs that can summarize this year for me. Since Form 5 ended, I gotta say Graduation by Vitamin C fits very well into the list. I'm not sure how many of us can sing the last few lines of the chorus honestly, I sure can't.

Ohhh man, did I just write a blog entry reflecting on this year?

REVIEW: Rapunzel (SPOILERS AHEAD)

Rapunzel!! I'm quite glad I decided to watch this film. While there are some spoilers here, I am not gonna go into much details, since well. I'm typing this after midnight, I'm tired from a whole day of fun. But I still feel like writing a review anyways lest I forget it, so please excuse me.

At first, looking at the characters(well, mostly at Rider and Rapunzel) I instantly thought of Aladdin and Jasmine. From facial expressions, personality to character design. Yup. Sure does. But you don't really mind it after you get into the show, it's not much of a problem.

It's comedic, that's good. It doesn't have any forced humor and it was quite realistic within it's bounds. I was sorta worried after realizing that it's not a Pixar produced film sitting in the cinema. But my worries were put to rest after the film started.

Soundtrack! I didn't really paid much attention to the music, but the songs sang, hmm. They were okay, very Disney-like as usual, but I think it doesn't stand up to the older films such as Mulan. However, the musical parts were well executed into the story and flow. For the first time, I didn't felt like saying "Who the hell would suddenly break into a song in a situation like that?!" while pointing straight at the screen.

Maximus the white horse was very funny, I didn't expect them to give the horse any characteristics when I was watching it actually. The green chameleon is pretty cute and funny too.

The story is nice, the tears are a bit of a cliche, but oh well. It's a tale that existed for a long while already, and there was one version that had the magic tear in it so I don't mind this one.

One of the biggest highlights of this film is definitely the lantern scene, I won't go into this at all though, since it'll just lessen the impact for you. So yup, I highly recommend this film if you wanna enjoy a nice fairy tale with friends, families or a partner!

Dear Diary

Had fun with a couple of friends today at Jusco watching Rapunzel and went to the pasar malam at night. Know what's best about pasar malams? The kids! Naughty kids crying and whining about toys and food! Cute kids following their mother or father! Pain in the ass kids at the toy stalls! But mostly, it's the cute little babies and the cute little kids. But, the other kids sure make me feel nostalgic. You could say that beside food and friends, this is my favorite thing about Pasar Malams.

Airplanes In The Night Sky

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky
are shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right, now wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky
are shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right, now wish right now

Yeah, I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
'Cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'
And all the love song and the pain and the heart

And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you starin' at that phone in your lap
And you hopin' but them people never call you back

But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel in the sand
What would you wish for if you had one chance?

So airplane, airplane, sorry I'm late
I'm on my way so don't close that gate
If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Yeah, somebody take me back to the days
Before all the love songs, before all the hate
When bandages were all it took to stop cryin'
Yeah, back when I was tryin' to work for my dreams

And back when I was drawin' for the hell of it
But nowadays we drawin' to get paid
I'm guessin' that if we can make some wishes out of airplanes
Then maybe, oh, maybe I'll go back to the days

Before the dramas that we call life
And back when ain't nobody looked at my drawings
And back before I tried to perfect my art
But this is for everyone, what's up, peeps?

So can I get a wish to enjoy life as it was?
And get back to my dreams that motivated me
So here I stand, and then again I sink
I'm hopin' we can make some wishes out of airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

I could really use a wish right now
I could really use a wish right now
Like, like, like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
A wish, a wish right now


Hm, just felt like doing my own version of Airplanes by B.O.B, can't say it's perfect and I don't dare say it rhymes when I rap it out loud(I didn't try) so yeah, its' more like for fun more than anything. This is one awesome song. Billionaire too :D

GARO!!

I have just watched Garo: Beast of The White Night's making of footages. No doubt about it now! The cast! The director! The crew! Everyone gave their best to the show.

I'd always felt the show before the movie was emotional, full of emotions from the actors and actress, and the action scenes! Well what do you know!? The main protagonist actually does his OWN stunts! Bravo! Bravo! Hardly do you see any real action in Kamen Rider or anything else of the similar genre anymore! And mind you, just because I mentioned Kamen Rider, does not make Garo a child's show. It's aimed at adult audiences. Anyways, less of that and more about the show. After watching these footages, and the main protagonist almost burst into tears after his final scene was filmed, add that to him dressing up in his props and going to the director with a birthday cake, singing Happy Birthday with the show's heroine, and in front of all the crew and cast! God that's touching, so very fucking touching.

I could only dream to work on a set like that. Where everyone were giving it their all, their love into the film, appreciating and even crying when the thing is finally completed and done with!

Watching the interviews with the cast, man. Sure makes me want to be an actor. You know, acting together, laughing together and all that! Ah it seems like such a great experience to behold.

Nay to Negativity!

What a rough year it'd been. New people have I met. Amount those that I'd became enemies with. Those who'd bonded with. Humans, we're ugly creatures indeed. So many things had happened. To me, to some of my friends. I'd seen some people fall in love with each other, and then break up. All within just half a year. How fragile can love be eh? Sorta makes you wonder do you even feel like looking forward to dating the girl you're currently having a crush on anymore, or does it not? Would you rather be optimistic about it and say "We'll make it last, it's real love after all!" Yet, we'd only half a year for most of us to get to know each other. I honestly doubt that's enough for you to know a person enough to actually be in love with her. But oh well. Infatuations and crushes come like this anyways, no stopping it if it does happen. Yet, if you know what I'm talking about, then it'll probably be hard to actually try to stay optimistic all the time. Or perhaps one's just looking at it from too complicating an angle.

We humans, we always change through time. We change and progress every single year, looking back, we all probably have things to laugh about about ourselves, calling our own selves stupid for doing that. Then again, it's always for better or worse. I wonder which I'm changing to? Ah, it just seem so easy to be my past self.

How hard would it take for an instrument to fit into an already existing orchestra?

Friends, come and go in our life. Oh how you wish some would stay but they never did. How you wish your phone would ring every single day. But it doesn't for everyone. "Friends forever" "I love you forever!" Ah, such simple words, yet not many seem to see how heavy the weight of words like "forever" and "never" holds. It's nice, when you have a few buds and you always hang out together. What's sad is when you all drift apart. Either by force, by life, or by their own will. Fights, change of opinions towards each other, disability to communicate on the same page anymore. It's sad to see things go. But once you just stop being on the same pages anymore, it seems quite inevitable for you all to drift apart. Happens to people. Perhaps not to everyone. But I sure know a few.

It's ironic, for a man to say that he find that his collection of figurines and some plastic models kits could give him more comfort than people sometimes, although he has such a dislike for solitary life and people who chooses to lead a solitary life.

Nay! Nay to all these pessimistic talk!!

A rough year as it is. I'm somewhat...glad. Co-ed class, food, futsal, new friends, old friends who doesn't seem to be who I thought they'd be, new lessons, adapting, studying, change of opinions and ideas, believing, forgetting, losing, letting go, changing, moving on, fighting, hate, infatuation, understanding, disagreements and so on. Ah, quite a lot of things. What a roller coaster ride for me this year. Let's hope I'm not in for another downward slope, I can't go for another one yet so soon.

Kamen Rider Den-O review episode 1 - 12

Yeah, last time I tried watching the series, I dropped it at episode 1 after catching glimpse of episode 11. Now, I'd watched from episode 1 to 11 and soon 12, waiting for another HD batch release by TV-Nihon. Anyways;

Surprisingly, I don't hate Momo as much anymore, I like Kintaros when he debuted and stopped liking him after his debut episodes. Ura...didn't entertained me as I thought he would, I'd always had an impression that he's this awesome smooth talker with style. Okay...so he does fulfill that, but not quite the personality I expected I guess.

Hana is hot. :D as for the story. Some of it proves to be interest and fun enough, but it just doesn't seem to keep me coming back for more except for when I was surprised that Kintaros's debut intrigued me. Ryutaro is one hell of a loser too. I doubt I'll ever grow to like him. I hate the train battles too, seems kinda tacked on. I mean..."Imagins going out of control?" I don't really get that theory very clearly. Wonder would they touch more on that later? I don't really like anime-like humor the show has going honestly.