Passion In Ruins

Never let your seriousness for perfectionism get the best of you. Don't try to improve because you just want to reach the top, cause in that case, you'll just burn out and I speak from experience.

I used to make tags/signatures on forums. Hella fun they were, totally fun. I remembered we had teams and and competitions for the best signatures each week. I wanted to win one so bad, won one in the end, and then I just craved for moooaar. Well, I kinda crashed and burned, stopped tagging, studied in pre-university levels, form 6 among other things.

Now? My passion's dead, my passion's in ruins. My craving for number 1, my need for it to be amazing regardless of my joy or sorrow had extinguished the fire. It sure hurts, knowing that you're letting what you used to love just slip away like that, letting it die and be forgotten by the very person who created them. I kinda regret deleting all the tags I'd made before. I still remember a few and I think it will put a smile on my face if I could only see it.

I may not even know you, but I pity you, it takes one to know one. Your passion isn't worth being sacrificed to achieve perfection, and burning bridges is just stupid majority of the time. I'd took the hard way through to learn, and it hurts me to see others going through the same shit. If I have the ability to stop them, give em a good beating to the ground to wake them up, I would, but I would never be able to. I'm no altruist. I'm not strong enough to protect people's smile by sacrificing my own.

But maybe this is why, that I sympathize, shield, understand, try to reach out and defend at all cost people who are ostracized, forgotten, hated, and even though who were asking to be kicked out of a group.

I still am bad at being a good person, a good friend, or to ever become boyfriend/husband material, but hey, I guess at least I can still reach out my hands to people like these, those who I understands.