St.Michael

I love my school. =)
I had a talk with Melissa Lau just now, and what did I found out? Well basically what I found out made me love my school even more. Yes yes, I'd been at SMI for 10 years now. Natural that I only support my own school, but still, I won't want to have it any other way. Sure we used to curse at our own school, make fun of the initial SMI as Sperm Making Inc and a lots more that I have forgotten. But bottom line is, I love my school. =D It's sad to think that I'm gonna be here for just 1 year and a half more. But that's life, you can never go back, only forward. So with what we have, we march on.

Recently, I starting to get fed up with someone though and I think she's starting to realize that I am fed up with her. Oh well. Don't want to bother with her social life. Got some info on her while chatting with Melissa, so yeah. Eye opener. But I guess one of my classmate's actually right about this girl I'm fed up with. Wonder how will things go? Anyhow, ouch. P.P is so not like Basic Economics and Tradings. The techniques we used to score points in Ekonomi Asas and Perdagangan doesn't work anymore. Lesson learned, time to start studying. Form 6 really is different from form 5 in a sense. I need to touch up on my MUET too. My thinking and english has gotten pretty rusty. I'm dubious of my ability at the moment. @.@ Maybe it's the competitive perfectionist in me that's doing the talking today. XD I get so competitive in MUET classes recently. But that's good. =D Guess when it comes down to it, I'm- Anyways.

I hope I can win a spot in the 1 Malaysia photography competition ;_; By the way, I'm not saying that the management team didn't do a job with it. Just that the event was disappointing on the models part that they are....kinda spiritless to be playing sports. Oh well. Ah I wonder will I get a girlfriend during my Sixth Form year? =="

End of Curri- WTF?!

God damn, since the muslims are gonna be in their fasting month next week or so, all koko are canceled. No more St.John, no more Badminton no more DSLR cameras. Sad news. Argh, but anyways, today was sorta a fun-ish day in a way anyways. Learned about manual focus today at the photography club. Had much laugh when the St.John lecture was going on. Those were some useful things to learn about, first aid I mean. I'm glad I didn't join the Adams club XD and the fact that I didn't pick wushu. Though I still feel that I wasted those first two years back in form 1 and 2 for Wushu, kinda a waste. As for class today, let's just say that I'm happy enough that I know what today's Maths S class was talking about.

Facebook's getting back to being active and fun. =D Especially with Ah Bear, Phang, Chicken and lots of others. For a while there, I thought it'll be quiet forever. x.x Next to that, my MSN's getting livelier too. Ah I miss you my MSN. =)Also, I'm happy for a certain someone, let's hope that it'll blossom. Like he says, "Who knows? Who's to know?"

I kinda want to try singing to a crowd, 6th Form Night seems to be such a great opportunity, but I don't want to sing alone. D= Cyber space's not good enough, yeah. I'll keep trying and keep that in mind, guess that's call practicing it? Can't say I'm all good with that, still rough round the edges. Gotta transfer some photos too. Oh geez, I have so many photos I haven't resize and or fixed up on my harddisk, my harddisk literately out of space. Like, 100MB left on the C Drive. But oh lucky me, got a car ride home. Thanks a lot to Johnny Teoh. Hopefully I can win a spot on this 1Malaysia photography competition too. Since I didn't get any post for any clubs or what so ever. Pretty much screwed up the MUET essay points. Urgh, I hope it's just because that I haven't worked on an essay for like 5-6 months and not because I can't come up with good ideas.

3rd of August

I'm starting to get very comfortable in my class recently. It's fun, with Sweet Sweet Hamsap Bin and Moo around to be the laughing stocks. Phang and the others are great to joke and talk to. The girls aren't bitches and so far, don't think they are hypocrites. But no prejudices. The new girl, Lai Lin or as I like to call her, Zip(Zip in cantonese is pronounced Lai Lin) gives off this aura that she's the competitive type. Maybe a perfectionist? I don't know, all I know is that she's happy when people tell her that she's sexy. XD. I seldomly talk to Yan Lin and Shi Yun so no opinions on them. Suet Mei was quiet but she sure scared us when she brought her voice up when complaining to us about someone XD. Shing Yee is awesome! 3 lollipops XD! As for the rest of the Sam Tet dudes, I'm getting along fine with Iceman and well, I don't talk much with Daokei and Wei Him so I don't know. XD. Math's going on as usual. I need to really push it up eleven if I want to survive maths S I guess. Urghh... Naga and Safar are as usual. Know em since Form 1, we don't talk much since our sitting spots are a bit inconvenient for us to be chatting around with. Then there's the monitor of the class. Well, I rather not get into what happening between her and Safar. So I have no opinion on them.

As for the rest of the sixth form, it's as I'd said way before on my blog. I think I found those special compasses, not just one either. Two at SMI and one at KL. No way am I gonna lose those compasses, I'm gonna change or die trying. I'll try to follow in that man's footsteps.

Ah crap! Forgot to fill in the photography log book! ARGH. Gotta do it tomorrow. x.x" remember it.

Diary Entry; "2nd of August"

Ah, August. Exam on the 16th of August. Let's see what else? Since I decided not to drop maths S, I guess I'll be waging a never ending war at school starting now. Can't lose the war. Got my pride on the line. Not gonna lose to my cousins. A successful life, that shall be my revenge against them. So yeah, bring it Maths =D Anyways, so today was the photography competition. The models were form 2 students. God it was terrible. The form 2 were wearing school uniforms and weren't good at playing the sport. At least have the spirit if you aren't good, have fun! It's sport! C'mon! Have fun! Have all the fun you want before you need to go back to class! But noooo, they were pretty spiritless as far as I think.

Didn't like how my photos came out. Argh, and I was hoping I could grab second or third spot.

Friendship Day

I didn't really knew today was what they call Friendship Day. So it falls on the first Sunday of every August. Since I got new batteries for my camera. I decided to camwhore a bit. Then the idea hit me and yeah, that's where this came from. Happy friendship day everyone! Also, here's a piece dedicated to a few people!

You and Me, let's dance with Sejarah.

Nothing much today beside that I finally got the t-shirts for the Michaelian Photography club. I also met some awesome Australian that were once Malaysians and got praised by that Australian uncle's brother for being good with english. XD I love being praised. =D Anyways, I feel like dropping maths. Can't stand Chapter 3. Urgggh. Time to discuss with my father, then my class teacher that is Miss Corrinne, and then the big one, Pn.Tan. I really do not want to switch classes. I mean, I love the atmosphere in my class, it's big! It's windy when it's rainy! I laugh at A1 and S3 sadistically when I remember the fact that there's no wind in their class. =D And I like most of the teachers beside a certain few. Such as my PA teacher(duh.) and urgh...hm. Oh yeah, Ratan. Like I'd said, Pn.Ratan's not a bad teacher. It's just that it's probably the way she teaches that doesn't suit students like me. You know? Subjects like maths, it always take the right teacher to teach the right students for it to succeed. Or the student's just super hardworking, which I am not. I can be a big perfectionist most of the time, but I'm lazy. So go figure.

So if we can, I rather not change class just because I'm dropping one subject. I know it's a selfish-ish thing to demand, but man, I'd been in SMI for 10 years already! I don't want to leave it just because I want Seni Visual! Or even move classes for that matter. I want to wear the monitor tie, I didn't get any post in the monitorial board, after my tantrum about it, FINE. But I still love that tie more than any versions of the SMI ties of our current generation! It's an awesome tie. I dare say I'll one day wear a suit, and I'll wear that awesome tie with me proudly.

It's funny isn't it? Life that is, you hated school, you didn't like the uniform, you hated the dressing code and everything there is about it. But then one day, you realize how great it is, you start to miss it once it's over don't you? At least I only realized that I love my school and am super glad that I came to St.Michael after SPM. People only regret and miss things when it's too late don't they? Well, what else did I thought about talking? Ohhh yeah, so anyways. I don't want to change schools or change classes. I like what I have.

A truck

Life's 90% decisions and the rest are bonuses. Everything comes down to the decisions you make either in the past or in the present. I'd been making some pretty bad decisions lately >< Glad I got some bonus to balance it up a tiny bit. Now, time to watch the Music Video for Nobody's Perfect.

My Nameless Friend's Story.

So this is a little story a "childhood" friend of mine written. It's a story about this "childhood" friend of mine I guess, we'd been close friends since we were born XD. So I guess it's natural this friend of mine is trying to reach out to the world through me. That's probably why this "childhood" friend of mine wrote this.

I studied in St.Michael, I used to be a shut-in but only in Form 3 did I realize that I was a complete stuck-up spoiled brat. Two years have I wasted where I could have embraced better memories with my friends if I wasn't hiding in a shell, but alas time never turn back for anyone but the Prince Of Persia. We're the best of friends indeed, the only thing that's left of our friendship is but pieces and calling it the good old days. We had never gotten back together ever since Form 3. But I cherished those times anyways, it was fun with them, and I could open up to one of the members of the group since so to speak, I idolize him now. Who I want to become sometimes so desperately I forgot who I myself was until about a year ago. But it was never successful in all it's glory since I'd always hid myself behind a superiority complex in form 4 to 5. Never letting anyone reach out to me. I only reach out to others when I can't handle the loneliness anymore, specifically a friend who I got on the wrong foot with in form 3 and also the man who I admire to become like in one way or another.

Somehow I just started to become better friends with the first guy through music. Even to this day I still share my problems with him, he's majoring in...let's just say specializing in reading into the mind of humans and understanding how it works. I am trying to be a more open book now though, it's why I'm writing up this and requesting Kyle to post it up on his blog. But it's not like the wind's helping me out though, it just tries to blow me away most of the time when I am in reach of the top.

My parents are divorced due to misunderstandings and my mom and grandfather are basically enemies to their deaths, my grandfather's a complete paranoia jackass due to his kidney failure and I'm labeled as "the useless grandson" on his list. Really, I think being an omnipotence being is the only way to completely pleases them. It's why I can easily relate myself to K.

I'm now studying in form 6, it sure wasn't my first choice though, I'd be happy to go to The One college I would had gone to if I had the money. But, I can't say that I am not happy with my life in Form 6 either, even though I have to struggle with a subject that I have no basics in, I'd managed to see other sides of people, of myself, and also manage to forge new friendships that I thought were never possible to begin with, with new people I'd never met before or with people who I never had gotten to see their other sides. Perhaps you could say that I'm trying my best now to crawl out of the damn cave that I was stuck in, and through that process, hopefully, some who I had interacted with in the process of climbing are gonna start climbing like me too, regardless of how different their problems are.

Some of them really opened my eyes, some pisses me off, one really pisses me, some are making me push myself to be more leader-like. Some got me to decide something I'd been hesitating to make a decision about, a certain few gave me new meanings to old words such as "friendship" and they also gave me a new perspective on life. To those certain few, I thank you people for being part of my life even if it doesn't mean much to you. Had I felt so comfortable calling people as my bros and sis when we aren't related by blood? Had I really felt that people really meant those words when they say "You guys like my brothers you know?" No, not really. At least not until now.

And that's the end of it, I'm guessing I'm one of the "certain few?" since he asked me to post this?? I'm not being perasaan lol. =D Anyways, I cannot release my friend's name because he doesn't really have one. I don't interact with this friend of mine in school at all and neither do I ever talk about him, so you can't figure it out from me either. But do my childhood friend a favor, if you have guesses and or think you got the right answer, send me a private message on Facebook or text my cell. He doesn't want his name to show up in regards to personal stories of his, baby steps to being more open I guess? Ahaha.

Invisible Wall~

So I was on photography duty today, with people who's name I don't really care to remember. Well yeah, kinda felt an invisible wall there. I only talked to the Uppersixes on duty and Brother Matthew. There was the occasion where I dropped the lens cover and N said "Oh don't worry, it's just the cover, it's very cheap." and I said "yeah yeah yeah, it's cheap cheap cheap." Wait, was he even on duty today? Oh well. The results for the Living Heritage competition's finally posted, but us LSA3s already knew it beforehand anyways. =w= I got second~!! Koko points are mine =D Now for the petrol money from the whole driving to go sell drama deal.

17 Again review

So I'd watched another western movie. Not much of a surprise isn't it? XD. Anyways, Zac Efron seems to be the actor, to be honest I didn't really recognize him. I'm kinda a sucker for slick of life movies when it comes to real life shows. But I really hate chinese tvb drama shows with a passion. Anyways, it's about a guy who's getting into a divorce given a second chance in life to set things straight. It's a bit on the funny side and kind entertaining. It's rated 18 on HBO, but there's just kissings and a tiny bit of violence involved, the show dealt with family issues(obviously)and sex and relationships I guess. I don't really think there's anything else to say about it really. Not a bad watch. At least I don't regret watching it.

I had a long chat with Seng Hoo just now and currently, I think I have a good idea for some pictures, time to start drawing =w=

2 In 1 Friday Afternoon Party!

Today is Neoh's birthday and Sze Ling's official final day at SMI. We finally decided to go to Ipoh Parade to eat and have fun after a whole big dilemma between going to Parade or McD. So after school today, we gathered up and all went to Parade. Sadly only Sze Ling and Neoh's the only girls. Yoon, Chow and a few others too had came to Parade a sort while after me, Neoh and Sze Ling got to parade. Eating at Mary's Brown was filled with laughs. We found out that Alan and co. ditched us when we got to parade though, that probably made Sze Ling so so so sad~ ahaha. Two others had also joined my class. Wow, my class had suddenly became so big. >_<

Phang and Yik Ken gave Neoh a birthday present and gave Sze Ling a giant size farewell present. Wow, never knew they were willing. I mean, I only have gotten to know them this year. This just proves that all science stream guys are stuck up jackass theory wrong XD. I kinda regret not getting to know you guys, but oh well. The past's the past, can't change it and I'd got to make the best out of the rest of my life. =D It took some convincing to make Sze Ling bowl with us though, since she didn't knew everyone else that were present. XD Damn Chow sang a chinese song about "waiting for you" while we were on the escalator after I got done with convincing the girls. Anyways, after having our laughs and jokes at Mary's Brown, we went up to play 2 games of bowling while yoon's group played 3 games. I usually get tired on the second lol. When I went over to Yoon's lane, it was funny since at that moment he missed on both of his turns. XD

I was the highest scorer on the team I'd played on, yay! The group consist of me, Yik Ken, Sze Ling and Neoh. While the other had Phang, Ivan Tan, Chow and Wong Joe Han. I was the only one who I didn't managed to get a strike. ;_; But well, after bowling we all went shopping before Derek and Yeo, the two from Alan's group came suddenly and say they will tag along with us. What the hell happened to them anyways? O_o' then as usual, I get a car ride back home thanks to Sze Ling, today's the last day that I'll be able to get an early ride back home unless Nat brings her car, which she sometimes doesn't on Friday.

Haha, today was definitely a blast! But at the same I guess it's kinda bittersweet. We're one person less in LSA3. New members doesn't count as replacements cause there aren't gonna be any replacement for anyone. I wonder how the atmosphere around my class would be like now that we don't have Sze Ling around anymore. I hope it doesn't change much. It'd definitely feel different. But we gotta continue on still; "Don't cry because it's over, cry and then smile because it had happened, even if it was for a short and limited time." Guess that's my own personalized version of the original quote "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it had happened." XD. Hey, if I myself don't cheer up and smile, I won't be able to keep my promise I'd made to someone in the past would I? =)

I also met Kevin Teoh again today, god it took me few seconds staring at him to recognize that he is who he was! You'd changed quite a bit dude! Even your voice's different, I wonder why other people's voices are still the same! Lol, wish we could had talked a bit more though.

Time is not measurable

Amazing isn't it? Form 6 really feels so different than the other forms. Through sweat and blood we all suffered through staying awake to listen and play in class to annoy the teacher, and suddenly we reached form 3, sadly I was more or less a fool and wasted 2 years worth of time to hang with you guys. Ah man, so I only had one year where we all were really friends, with all the dramas counted still, it was one of my funnest years in SMI. You people were and still are awesome. ;D

Then the form 4 and form 5 years, not to say that I screwed it all up, but well, there's reasons why I wanted to cut ties with my form 4-5 casual classmate team we had formed, but I'll talk about that later if I feel like it. So form 3 easily wins over this. Now is Lowersix and so far, wow, I never knew I'll become such great friends with so many people. I'd never imagined it like I'd mentioned it a few times before already on the blog. I'm trying to be less of an introvert and open the book. I'd closed it up too tight for too long. Lol, come to think of it, I wonder how things would had gone if I did get into the science stream in the very first place in Form 4, perhaps I would had made great friends with a few people. Who's to say that won't be possible anyways?

Time's not measurable at all, argh. In 3 years time, I wasted two years being a super stuck up emo, then one year as an emo, but I'd made great friends. Then 2 years being an introvert tightly closed book. And then just by this year, I'd met people who call me their brother and who I feel comfortable sharing and giving back such feelings as well(It'd been a long while since Form 3, the number's doubled. Aha.) I'm glad I'd gotten to know you guys, now I have brothers and sisters. ;D

Okay, so there are other factors that determines how things can go. But my point's still there isn't it? XD. So yeah, I guess this is just another one of my self reflecting diary entries. That's what a diary is for anyways, and it also seems that I tend to reflect upon things when it rains. Oh yeah, my ex was hanging around with who I was hanging around with, the Phang and co. today and I totally did the "I'm ignoring your existence" thing while still chatting with everyone. Aweeeessooommmee~

A new week, a new stude- oh wait.

Well some of us thought that our class would have some new people coming in today, but it ended with nobody coming into our class, since our's are basically "full." Lol. I can't say if I'm happy or sad about that :( But the good news is, it seems that every who were going emo for the past weeks had seem to returned to normal, but now another wave seems to coming I think? One of my classmate's who wasn't affected last week seems sorta down today for some odd reasons. It's also Yoke Mei's birthday today, lol. We didn't do any staying back for eating or anything, but just eat muffins at the canteen during recess, it didn't really hit me till after school just while hitching another ride home on Sze Ling's car now that I thought "oh, why didn't we have a stay back and eat or something? It's her birthday after all." . I was really out of synch with Vivian and Tan when we were wishing Yoke Mei happy birthday when I just stood there and smiled while the others were clapping and singing. I'd never really gotten to like singing the song "Happy Birthday." I didn't event say Happy Birthday ><

Sze Ling gave me an interrogation-ish section during the ride home too. :( Anyways, all things aside, I'm glad that what I imagined might had happened didn't happened. And oww, duty time tomorrow as photographers for the SMI Open Day and my partner's Mun Mun =D. Lol, it seems I unintentionally ditched Neoh because I was stationed with her. >_<" Calvyn!! When can you confirm are you gonna go watch Toy Story with us this saturday?!

I'd got "nothing" to lose!

I just watched a comedy movie just now entitled "Nothing to lose." It seems to be a 1997 film remastered and has very very good quality. It's not the best damn thing out there, but it sure is crazy, fun, very laughable and crazy. Okay, maybe not as crazy as animes and all that. But still crazy nevertheless. I'd laughed through the whole show, and I'm the type that frown at Chinese comedy shows. So yeah, I think it's pretty good. Basically, it's a story about a goody-goody CEO white guy, Nick Beam who loves his wife and discovered that his wife is cheating on him. He saw her having sex with another guy in his room, so he drove off into the streets, a black guy T.Paul tried to rob him but it resulted in Nick going crazy and driving his car into traffic and all that stuff.

You should watch the rest yourself so that it won't ruin most of the fun. I honestly enjoyed it thoroughly. It does end with a very predictable happy ending and the white guy has a pretty predictable personality of those goody-goody-two shoes, the events also end up being light hearted at the very end, but oh well. If you want something dark, go watch Black Lagoon, loli vampire sex slaves, a drinking nun that shoot at people with guns, a hot red head Chinese girl with two pairs of gun, a guy who reminds you of Barrel from FF7, drugs, crimes and all that.

But really, somehow it just doesn't make you feel tired of it with this one movie. For more info on this you can read it here. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0119807/ and no, it's not a black and white flick, I don't know why the pictures on it are black and white.

Life Is...A Soap Opera

I'd never ever wanted to come for Form 6. I hated school life. I'd lost more time than I can ever make up for, and to add to that I'm still a semi-closed book. But now that I reminisce about it. I'm glad of the stuff that had happened. It's what made me who I am, for better or worse I don't care. Friends came and go. New bonds were forged, and chains were broken off. Life's but a giant soap opera. I'm exposed to the side of people who I never knew existed while I do the same to the others. Although it is actually too late for an unnamed few people. People who I never expected I'll become companions with suddenly are one of the close friends of mine, and people who I thought we'll forever hang together are now a distant past. Next to the friendship arcs I guess there would be the family arc. Be it short or long, tragic or happy huh? Right between those is the love arc, there are so many things that can either make you or break you in life, and all 3 arcs are basically part of those. I'm glad I'm not totally broken at the least, by now I bet majority of the people around here had probably gone through or are going through those arcs. Though it's not like it'll ever end anyways. It's easy to relate one's life to that of an soap opera isn't it?

I guess this is kinda why I made a wallpaper out of photos I took in my class. Advance sorries for those who are not inside the photo, most noteable would be Sze Ling and the new students. I took this when Sze Ling wasn't around and you guys haven't transferred over yet. Let's hope that we can have some fun memories to keep when we get through Form 6. We probably had a rough start especially me who didn't like anyone, haha, I guess I was a bit of a prejudice. But now we all really gotten along with each other very well haven't we? =) Beside one guy, but nobody cares about him anymore anyways.


If by any chance photobucket isn't working, feel free to get the full sized version over at Deviantart; www.de-cade.deviantart.com.

I certainly need to get back in touch with designing. Just you people wait. One day, I'll become famous. And I'll treat whoever I can still consider as friends at that time to a feast! Especially the girls! I really gotta thank people for sparking my inspiration and determination back on track too. Aside from that, I really want to be someone's pillar of support right now, regardless of am I powerless to do so or not. I may be a fool that rushes, but I'll make it work somehow soon. I finally have friends who I know are there to support me for that. It's even more amazing to think that they are gonna support me rather than to compete with me so or so they claim. ;P

I'm not going to say the names of my friends since I think they know who they are, We are very close too when it comes to positions, the irony just keep thickening does it not? :D I used to have been using a Kadoya Tsukasa mask as my front in the last two years. I guess with me trying to be less of a closed-book, I'd became more like Hidari Shotarou. Hey, if you're ever interested, just google out their personality, I'm not gonna state everything. =)

Heh, now that I think about it. I'd been blogging a lot too. Well, it makes sense since I take blogs as a diary. That's why I have a private one. XD

Rainy Day at school once again~

Ah, raining during school dismissal. When you take a bus to and back from school, it sucks. But luckily, I have friends who were kind enough to take me home and even took a detour for some Burger King ice creams XD. I'm really surprised now, I'm being exposed to people who I don't usually talk to, so it amazes me that we can get along. Next to that I even found out that the people that they don't like at all are the same particular people that I don't like at all either =D Tomorrow night at 7pm I'll going to go to St.Michael along with Munchkin-Cat to take photos of the full-dress rehearsal school play. I'll blog about what I think about it when I get back that night =)

MUET today was kinda fun and challenging. Listening tests are literately trying to make you lose marks. >_< and what the heck!? We're gonna go sell tickets again?! Ah oh well. We'll just form new groups since some of use weren't happy with the group they got stranded with some guy. Everyone today talked about that guy when he wasn't around ahaha. Nice to know that everyone doesn't like him. I am feeling at home at my class finally =D It'd been a while since I felt at home with so many people at once.

I'd also been pretty much addicted to Sonic Underground and Sonic the Hedgehog opening theme songs. God it's awesome.

2010; let renew!!

Alright! Deleted all my other dairy entries. Life sure is a mysterious thing huh? One day you're ranting about how much you hate school, but the moment you finished SPM for Form 5, the moment that you stood up from your chair is the moment you start missing it. Geez, and what's even more surprising is that I decided to study in Form 6 of all things. Heh, throughout these few years and dairy entries, I think I have come to know many people that had came and gone. Some stayed, some ran away, and I guess I shoved some away too.

But still, I don't feel any remorse. It's probably better this way. I think I'm thankful to one of those who had left. Sorta anyways. Heh, and I'm seeing constant changes around me, people who I knew suddenly have all walked a path I didn't imagine they would. College, career, and some not so good. Looking back. I guess I'd changed a great deal throughout these three years, steadily and constantly. Ah it's nostalgic. It's rainy tonight, cold and nice. Kinda makes me reflect on the past regarding just about anything. All the fun times, screw ups, enemies and arguments. Well, time waits for no one and never go in reverse. So I guess I'll just keep moving forward and quote on people. Oh yeah! Another funny thing would be that, me the guy who never liked Football was cheering and moaning at the TV during yesterday Fifa match. Weird huh? O_o

The first chapter of my comic is done today/yesterday!! Well, the first chapter of the third version, but this is still good news. =D