The Answer

I’d been asked before what type of women did I fancy and even though I thought I knew what type of women I liked in the first place, I was at a lost trying to answer that question. I found myself pondering on it for a while. Well, today it seems I finally have found a satisfactory answer to this troublesome question.

I like women who embrace their feminism with pride and grace. The ones who are not ashamed to be born a woman but also take matters into their own hands. I admire them for standing up against the majority, to do their best to tell the world that “women are equals” but do not demand special treatments such as “ladies first” and “You are going to give me the job we’re both fighting for because I’m a woman, and men are supposed to let women go first.” I believe that is truly admirable and makes a woman just that much more attractive.

I suppose I’m the type who is looking for a life partner instead of someone to spend my lonely nights with.  Someone to have fights with, to have laughs with and to be friends with. Yes, I think that would be indeed for me, the person would be both someone I love and respect.

The Journey

This post is dedicated to all my closest friends.

I have a friend, Mr. Jack SkEllington(Did I spell that right?) who once told me that I had too little close friends, you know, the people who would go to your funeral if you were to leave them first and they will send you off with a sincere heart. After seeing my cousin sister’s birthday party, I was surprised by the crowd of friends she had. It was surely a sight to be impressed with, or perhaps only in my opinion, perhaps only I had not experienced having a big group of friends celebrating your birthday.

Oh but I do have my fair share of close friends, maybe they are not able to throw me such a big party, maybe I had never threw them such a big party either. I was really happy when my friends threw me party during my Upper Form 6 year, even though Mr. Alchemist totally leaked the secret of my surprise birthday party, I was totally happy and nevertheless surprised to an extend of the warm reception. I must admit, I’d never been a good friend to anyone in the past, though I’m trying my best nowadays to not go back on my promise on being a better friend to all my remaining closest friends. I’m glad and grateful that they did not leave me. Ms. Baker, Ms. Swimmer and Ms. Child On Board, thanks for being some of my only friends in the whole of my form 6 life, it was supposed to have more than 200 students during our batch. But I guess I only made friends with you 3 girls and a few others. It’s ironic, that I became closer friends with you guys than with my classmates, but I am more than glad that I do have the privilege to still call a small number of my classmates as my friends.

(Oh, and by the way, so sorry to ya, Ms.Child On Board, I just can't think of any code name for you. I'm terrible at naming things.)

Maybe one day we can have a big party to make up for everyone missing their big ‘parties’ and I will not make any exception for anyone not attending. Dr. Altruist, I suppose I shouldn’t expect you to be at a party, but I am expecting you to be there, I’d noticed you had loosen up a bit since the days where we talked every night on MSN. I’m glad to see that, remember when I told you that you came off as a bit intimidating at times?

Though I can’t help but be powerless against this feeling of loneliness, do I yearn for such a large amount of close friends or do I feel like I’ll never matter to so many people, as much as they will matter to me? To be honest, I’m succumbing to it; maybe this is the reason why I have been refusing to sleep. Even when it’s 3 o’clock in the morning, I suppose it’s my own way of trying to help myself by writing out this blog post that I’ll post when I get back to KL. This post was typed and completed on the 22^nd of May 2013.

Yes, Mr. Jack SkEllington, you’re right. As much as Facebook amplify the illusion of other people being happy and you being a lonely bastard, I must admit that I may have too little close friends. Or perhaps, maybe this how it is actually supposed to be, where you are surrounded by a tiny group of people who truly care about you? That, I’ll never know, but as I step into my University campus every day, I’m learning new things, things I should learned earlier like everyone else. But I still have time to continue learning, right? Anyhow, I would not be regretting if the world is going to end tomorrow, I’ll do my best to make up for lost time, even if I were to only have one more day.

Mr. Alchemist, you’re an idiot, but I digress as I’m an even bigger idiot. Honestly compared to before the only things that makes you annoying now are just minor things, loosen up a bit on phone calls and touching people when you’re talking to them might help you out professionally and personally, hahaha! I know, you and Mr. Blade had gave me a lot of leeway and forgave a lot of things, that’s why I was a tad bit pissed when you two were pushing the decision on where to watch The Fast and The Furious 6 at. But I’d never been the type to show his emotions clearly, it’s a bit hard trying to do it now but I’m on my way though, slowly, but surely.

Signing off, Chi Chung.